Ok, so.... Tonight is my company Cristmas party!!! YAY!!!! But, I went last night to look for a new pair of pants, since I have OUTGROWN all of my others.... I have apparently gained A TON more weight than I realized....and I tried on 9 pair of pants, in up to 3 sizes bigger than I am used to wearing, and couldnt find ANY at all to fit!!! FI was with me, and trying to be supportive, but at that point NOTHING that he said was making me feel any better. I wanted to cry to bad, but then I didnt want him to see me cry so I held it back... which caused me to have an anxiety/pannic attack right there in the middle of the parking lot!!
I am NOW in the, "After Christmas, I am doing WHATEVER it takes to get this weight off!!!"
Sorry, just VERY frustrated, and I knew some of you would understand....