I am not comfortable at social gatherings and fiance and I are established in our home, so I advised everyone that I did not want or need a shower and asked for them not to plan anything and asked fiance not to disclose the guest list. Unfortunately, he gave the list to one of my bridesmaids anyway who wanted to plan something, and invitations for a couple's shower went out before I knew anything and could have maybe made a compromise with fiance that if it was important to him to have the party it could be scaled back for me. The bridesmaid offered to cancel the shower when she realized how truly upset I was, but fiance wants to go through with it.
I'm going to feel really awkward being the center of attention. And although fiance and the bridesmaid reassured me that it's not so and people will not give two gifts if they don't want to, I hate for it to appear that I "accepted" the shower and I'm gift grabby. I don't know whether it will help at the shower that I will be better acquainted with everyone than I usually am at parties, or whether it will be hard for me that I'm the guest of honor.
The bridesmaid hosting already suggested that I either arrive early so I'm not bombarded with people, or I thought of arriving late so I'm not sitting around waiting for everyone to get there. I plan to bring my own vehicle, show my face for a while, and then if I'm feeling uncomfortable I can leave once people start heading home and she will cover for me that I wasn't feeling well. She also suggested that we don't have to open the gifts in front of everyone, and I feel better about that because I am not sure how well I could hide my reaction to unwanted items. She also said she won't take pictures except maybe one or two cutting the cake. Fiance seems agreeable to all of this and understands he knows I'll need him to be strong and shield me from some of the attention, and has agreed to do something nice after the shower to give me something to look forward to and help me get through it.
CN: I am uncomfortable at social gatherings but a couple's shower has been planned against my wishes.
Please let me know if you have any ideas how I could be more at ease and make it through the party. (Aside from over-indulging on wine!) TIA
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