Firstly, this is probably the wrong site for this post. Secondly, I love my FH and really do want to marry him. I just really am disinterested in planning a wedding. It doesn't seem fun. It seems awful. We have already negated picking out formal invitations, registering for gifts, having a bridal party, wearing a white dress and tux and an aisle... oh, and chairs. And I am still disinterested and I feel awful about it. Our families really want a wedding and he is thinking of it as a giant, awesome party. I know that eloping is not an option in his mind - though I still bring it up all the time. I feel like this is some sort of big, crazy social obligation that has perpetuated for centuries. Am here I am, stuck right in it. Planning an event that should be one of the most memorable of my life, but just doing it for everyone else. And waiting for it to all be over, so that we can continue our happy life together.
I don't know what to do. I'm at a loss.