Well, not stress so much, since evrything is going well. But nerves maybe? I don't know. I can't get focused and I've had nightmares the last three nights that were either wedding or exhusband related.
Part of it is because I'm just WAITING for the ex to try to ruin this for me, or to try to bring me down. He tends to call me up about something kid-related and then get on a rant about FI or what we spend our money on or things we do with the kids. And he hasn't said one bad word about us flying the kids to Vegas for our wedding so I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I know the kids are gonna have so much fun, they're really excited, they're 20, 17 and 15, and they really like fi and get along with him well. Ex hates that the kids like fi, especially since they refuse to have anything to do with his girlfriend. But ex never even sees them, he hasn't been around at all, even talked to them in 2 months. Hasn't seen the older two since last summer.
And I know a lot of me just isn't used to being happy, veing calm, having everything go well. My life with ex was chaotic and unpleasant (to put it mildly) and fi is so good to me. Sometimes I just don't know how to deal with it! I know it's normal, but still!
Thanks for letting me vent!