ALRIGHT... I turn to each of you as my 9/13 brides with a heavy heart and the need to VOMIT!!! We were wanting to narrow down the wedding party in order to have things set for the long overdue engagement party where we are asking people to be apart of our wedding. It was awesome it all came together with ease until I was asked who to be my MOH..... I have since cried.. yelled.. pouted... felt the need to puke... just about everything here's my situation and please any advice or tips or ANYTHING will be greatly appreciated.
I come from a very small immediate family I am an only child.. well I was until my dad was remarried and had a daughter so I have a 9 year old little sister. I am not very fortunate in the friends department either I have a lot of girls I talk to but no one that I would say I am very close with.. I had one friend who was my best friend and we did everything but since 2006 we've had a falling out. I have a cousin who is near my age who is my twin or so the family says but lately she's kind of gone off the deep end. We use to talk all the time and now she never calls me and her # has changed with my notice. and LASTLY... my Aunt she is 1 year younger then I am we always use to pretend we were sisters no matter where we went, we have been on several trips together... she was my best friend!! last year her and her FI and me and mine we all took a road trip together down to FL to see some of our family and the trip was great! I think by the time we were on our way home we were a little tired of each other which is normal to be stuck in a CAR for 25 hours together people can get pretty annoying! well I am not sure what I did or what I said but I hardly ever hear from her I don't see her. I feel like she purposely doesn't invite me to places. NOW here's where the twist comes in. she told me that we should go to the Bridal expos together and kind of plan side by side being we are only getting married months apart from each other. I was super EXCITED and I knew forsure my whole life she would be my MOH. well then the first Wedding Fair came around and I seen on Facebook she was going... and I wasn't invited along with. When I asked about it my other cousin said "it's not her fault the bridesmaids planned it" which first of all she had no idea what was even going on.. and Bridesmaids? I guess I am not even in the wedding/.... WOW!! which I was okay with because she has 1000 brothers and sisters and a million friends ... we went out to dinner to talk and she attempted to smooth things over making empty promises and what not...
My problem is I don't trust her anymore... I feel like she's just saying what she needs to say to get her way... and I don't know if I want her to be my MOH but in honesty she's the only one who makes sense for me... my only option... WHAT DO I DO? do i get over myself and pick a family member who in 10 years may straighten out or do I just pick someone who is fine now and who may not even be in my life in 2 years? PLEASE HELP!!
Sorry this took up so much of your time but i am in such a pickle and no one close to me... my FI my mom my step dad none of them are really helping
THANKS!!!