Originally, FI only wanted one adult on each side standing up with us on our day to make it easy that no siblings were excluded, and we wanted to include our nieces and nephews as well. That was a great plan until about January when my best friend, who was my matron of honor, had a MAJOR falling out. I won't get into the details since they're highly personal, but needless to say neither of us would have ever been able to move beyond the problems to reconcile. I've always been an intoverted and shy person, and have never had a lot of friends. She was pretty much the only non-family member I was close to. When our friendship hit the fan, I was fine with not replacing her. I still don't want to in the sense that I don't want to insult anyone I would ask by making them feel like they're second best. I know that that's the right decision, but I'm starting to feel a little insecure about it. I feel like people will judge me when there isn't an adult standing up with me, like "is she that bad that she has no friends?" kind of thing. There are two junior bridesmaids (and yes I use junior on account of their age-- they'll be 9), and 3 flower girls, all of which are family.
If you were attending a wedding like that, would you side-eye the bride for not having an adult up there with her? Would you ask someone else to fill in given the situation? As far as having a witness goes, I was going to ask my mom to sign the marriage license. FI thinks I should replace my ex-friend with my cousin since we're really close and she'd likely understand. But I don't think this is the right move, and think it'd be cutting it too close to really change my mind as we're less than 5 months out.
I'm sure this feels much more complicated than it is, but I'm really struggling with how best to handle this. What do you think?
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