I knew it would happen eventually. I've done pretty good keeping up with my insane work schedule and planning this wedding. But I've just had such a nervous stomach and keep worrying about timelines and people showing up, dropping out, etc.
On Monday FI and I talked about how whatever we have done at this point is all we need. If we forgot something then owell. Now we can just sit back and try to relax for the next week and enjoy it. I felt great on Monday night. Apparently that was the calm before the storm!
Well, then Tuesday I got into a big mess with one of my very best friends who all of a sudden can't make it due to work. And then later my soon to be step daughter texted me that she couldn't make it for her dress fitting on Wednesday. And that's when I lost it. The dress fitting was not even a big deal so I seriously don't know what happened exactly. But holy cow it all just came flowing out! I was home alone and I swear I don't know the last time I cried that hard. I still don't know what I was so upset about, but I think it was just a culmination of all of our hard work and that it's all really happening. Plus PMS didn't help matters.
By the time I went to bed I felt better. I guess I just needed a good cry. Today I'm fine and FI and I have decided to just say we are done worrying about what we can't fix or change. It's gonna be a great party. I went to lunch today with a good friend and she said our wedding was going to be EPIC. Ha ha. So I'm just going to keep that thought and carry on!
Sorry for the vent, just had to get that all out there!
I hope you all are hanging in there and don't have any meltdowns!