Hey pretty lady!
I'm sorry you're feeling down right now. I saw your frustrated post about not having nutritionists where you're at and had an idea, have you thought about online consultation with a Dietitian (aka. Nutritionist, but backed up legally with a degree)?http://www.nlcd.ca/default.php?display=cid16
The website link I posted above is some dieticians in Newfoundland & Labrador, and quite a few of them have email addresses. I only thought of this because my parent's neighbour is a Dietitian and she does online consulting with quite a few clients.
Annnyway, I want you to know that you are awesome, and you will find your motivation again!! I think you should take some time off of weight loss for mental health, and when spring/summer finally emerges I think may feel motivated once again!
Remember, we are all here for you