~Pele~

starchyld77 · May 2013

I usually respond to people privately... I see no need to rant and rave and get mad at what others post and if I have any kind of issue I just send them a private message letting them know rather than posting in public.... It keeps the drama down tee hee

But as far as my injury goes it is my upper CT spine as well as my left shoulder... I have been in pain for almost a year and a half and I went in to the doc after having a day where I was not able to function (which was recently)... I got scolded by the orthopedist who saw me and told me that I am in for physical therapy as well as restrictions put on me as far as lifting and repetition... I have my good days and I have my bad and then there is the really bad where I just cannot do much of anything without there being pain... My FI told me that he does not want for me to be in any kind of pain when I walk down that aisle... Plus I am just a little bit peeved with someone on here who I will not name other than to say that her post ticked me off... (she posted on my last post on here)... I just simply chose to be nice and send her a message basically telling her that I have an issue with what she said and that she needs to not judge me because she has not walked a day in my shoes...

JillianNJohn · May 2013

This isn't meant for me but I wanted to say I am so very sorry you have so much pain. I pray you find some relief. I had a lumbar spine injury with permanent nerve damage at 24 yrs old so I can totally understand the severe pain. You take the good with the bad and keep going Here's hoping you have some relief on your wedding day. HUGS!!!!

starchyld77 · May 2013

In Response to Re: ~Pele~:
[QUOTE]This isn't meant for me but I wanted to say I am so very sorry you have so much pain. I pray you find some relief. I had a lumbar spine injury with permanent nerve damage at 24 yrs old so I can totally understand the severe pain. You take the good with the bad and keep going Here's hoping you have some relief on your wedding day. HUGS!!!!
Posted by JillianNJohn[/QUOTE]

Ouch Jillian! What happened? You do not have to tell me if you do not want to. Right now as it stands I am on a medication for nerve pain because i requested no narcotics because of the line of work that I do. I am very limited with what I can do both in and out of work and FI in general has been good about it but he has his days of being a complete twit and I have to subtley remind him that I am not superwoman... My goal is to get off these meds and get my life back... I cannot stand limitations like this and they make me feel helpless which is a feeling I try to avoid... Honestly Imiss being able to do the things that I used to be able to do without any kind of hesitation... I went from being an outdoorsy athlete to homebound for the most part and I am literally going crazy...

Peledreamsofrain · May 2013

I'm playing catchup today, whew. I checked my inbox, Starchyld, and I don't see anything from you (i hope TK didn't eat it).

I really hope I'm not the person who upset you, because I didn't intend to. I was trying to commiserate with you in yesterday's post (my injury is driving me crazy).

I feel so out of the loop!

starchyld77 · May 2013

In Response to Re: ~Pele~:
[QUOTE]I'm playing catchup today, whew. I checked my inbox, Starchyld, and I don't see anything from you (i hope TK didn't eat it). I really hope I'm not the person who upset you, because I didn't intend to. I was trying to commiserate with you in yesterday's post (my injury is driving me crazy). I feel so out of the loop!
Posted by Peledreamsofrain[/QUOTE]

You indeed were not the one who upset me and who knows if TK did eat it or not... either way I do not really care because if the people who upset me did not get a message from me then I write it off as writing down and vent on paper and then burning it... The person who upset me went by annmarie and I cannot remember the numbers after it... But yeah she sat there and had the nerve to doubt that me and my fiance are outdoors people when in truth we are but the fact remains that I got injured and that I am limited.. I simply told her in a PM Not to judge me because she has not walked a day in my shoes... My injury drives me crazy nearly every other day and yet there is not much I cando but follow the orders of the doc and PT and deal with those who have a problem with that in and out of work... Granted I miss snowb oarding, the rock gym and other things but I cannot do them right not and I am getting anxious because I miss all that things that I enjoy... I guess I just have to live with the fact that I am not superowoman and that we all get hurt

JillianNJohn · May 2013

I totally understand the desire to get your life back. I had fractured my L4/5 when i was 16 in a pole vaulting fall in high school, was relateively okay after i healed. then i had my first son at 20 yrs old and had some problems, numbness in my legs, went to physical therapy and the chiro alot, it never went away, docs said it was just atrophy from child birth bc of my size. Was repeatedly told its my sciatic nerve that's all. Had my 2nd son at 22, same issues, no worse, life went on. Had my 3rd son at 24 and the doc finally said the trauma from his birth (haha thats funny to me) did me in. When he was 2 mos old I was walking down my hall and my legs gave out and I hit the floor, holding my newborn. My oldest was 4 1/2 and came running and broke the babies fall thankfully. Went to the dr got an MRI and found out I had a 17 mm bulging disk. I ended up having surgery when my youngest was 13 mos old. They removed half my disk, pushed the other part back in. As if that wAsnt enough for me to go through, 3 mos after my surgery I was getting off the freeway, stopped in traffic and some idiot slammed into it bc he didn't see us. MRI showed my disc was at that point 9.5mm budged again. I did other therapies to put off surgery (next step is a fusion with metal rods). IM REFUSING!! Ill deal with pain. After the other therapies and various things my disk was 4.3mm, live able. Not pain free but live able. That was in late 2008. My kids are young, a fusion means no more amusement parks, nothing super thrilling, I'm 31 yrs old FORGET THAT!!! Maybe when they are older and don't want mom around but I'd rather have a weekend of fun with them and a few days of pain than to say sorry I can't do that. It's just how I am. They are old enough to understand I need to lay down sometimes, so if I cme home from work and head to bed they DO get it and will just come hang with me in my room, Now I just go for whatever gives me relief. I have an inversion table that I use 3-5 nights a week, I take a daily dose of aleve for inflammation. I do water therapy when I can, and hto packs whenever needed. I do my best to not take narcotic medications though at times I know that's the easy solution. Whew sorry to ramble... That's my story :-)

starchyld77 · May 2013

In Response to Re: ~Pele~:
[QUOTE]I totally understand the desire to get your life back. I had fractured my L4/5 when i was 16 in a pole vaulting fall in high school, was relateively okay after i healed. then i had my first son at 20 yrs old and had some problems, numbness in my legs, went to physical therapy and the chiro alot, it never went away, docs said it was just atrophy from child birth bc of my size. Was repeatedly told its my sciatic nerve that's all. Had my 2nd son at 22, same issues, no worse, life went on. Had my 3rd son at 24 and the doc finally said the trauma from his birth (haha thats funny to me) did me in. When he was 2 mos old I was walking down my hall and my legs gave out and I hit the floor, holding my newborn. My oldest was 4 1/2 and came running and broke the babies fall thankfully. Went to the dr got an MRI and found out I had a 17 mm bulging disk. I ended up having surgery when my youngest was 13 mos old. They removed half my disk, pushed the other part back in. As if that wAsnt enough for me to go through, 3 mos after my surgery I was getting off the freeway, stopped in traffic and some idiot slammed into it bc he didn't see us. MRI showed my disc was at that point 9.5mm budged again. I did other therapies to put off surgery (next step is a fusion with metal rods). IM REFUSING!! Ill deal with pain. After the other therapies and various things my disk was 4.3mm, live able. Not pain free but live able. That was in late 2008. My kids are young, a fusion means no more amusement parks, nothing super thrilling, I'm 31 yrs old FORGET THAT!!! Maybe when they are older and don't want mom around but I'd rather have a weekend of fun with them and a few days of pain than to say sorry I can't do that. It's just how I am. They are old enough to understand I need to lay down sometimes, so if I cme home from work and head to bed they DO get it and will just come hang with me in my room, Now I just go for whatever gives me relief. I have an inversion table that I use 3-5 nights a week, I take a daily dose of aleve for inflammation. I do water therapy when I can, and hto packs whenever needed. I do my best to not take narcotic medications though at times I know that's the easy solution. Whew sorry to ramble... That's my story :-)
Posted by JillianNJohn[/QUOTE]

My Fiance actually has two metal rods fused to his back and he has had it since he was 18... He is actually pain free and is very strong... I know that the surgery is not for everyone... I have been wanting my life back for awhile and I am just very tired of being judged by those who do not understand ie coworkers for example...

starchyld77 · May 2013

Ella I hear that to the utmost extreme... I have always been a risk taker and well my roomies and I this year are planning on going whitewater rafting this summer for a few days. Another thing that I want to do is get back into roller-hockey... But yet I cannot do those things until I am healed... I can only pray that I am healed enough to do said things... I am going crazy with the limitations placed on me... I want to get out and about and actually be able to enjoy things... Heck just to get out and do some fishing would be nice...

Peledreamsofrain · May 2013

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starchyld77 · May 2013

Pele I am sending you a PM... I feel your pain...

JillianNJohn · May 2013

In Response to Re:Pele:
[QUOTE]I completely understand how life changing spine/back injuries are. Before I hurt my back in 2002, I was unstoppable. Even after a laminectomy/discectomy on L3 through L5, I will never be my old self again. It was very hard to accept that, and toet go of what is lost. I'll never run again. I'll never rollerblade again. I can't stand or walk for long periods without the support of a cane. I still do risky stuff, like roller coasters, but being a risk taker is part of my personality.
Posted by EllaYoung[/QUOTE]

The impact of my laminectomy and discectomy didn't fully hit until 6 months after my surgery when the doctor said I'd never sky dive or bungy jump and surfing wasnt recommeded. id never had done any if them but t I was devastated. I was a sprinter, I can jog but no running. I can't give up roller coasters, I love them too much.

annmarie714 · May 2013

*waves* Hi. I was the one who apparently offended you so badly by questioning your activity level. I just got your PM because I don't typically check my PMs (don't use them). Sorry about that. I asked questions, you got angry. Just trying to get a clear picture, I asked additional questions. I didn't require you to provide additional info, but asked because there were contradictions between your posts.

Also, I work with a lot of people in my line of work who have a "woah-is-me" attitude, so part of my questioning came from an assumption that you didn't want to do daily work but wanted to play (your honeymoon thread) when it was fun for you. I will admit that was a poor assumption on my part. Sorry.

ETA:
I think you need to focus on fixing your injury/rehab, your FI's POV on your limitations and stop worrying about a stranger on the internet. Your posts on TN about him practically demanding you have sex with him more without any evidence of understanding, sending you to the grocery store for items you can't carry, etc are quite worrisome. Focus on fixing those problems then we can play the game of fixing what you think of me and I of you.

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