First, let me start off by saying that my MOH has been my best friend since we were 15 and we've always promised to be each other's MOH...and I love her, and her 3 children (my god-children) dearly. However....since I got engaged last month, she's been an ABSOLUTE NO SHOW! She didn't come to the bridal expo with me, my mother, and 2 of my bridesmaids. I made an appointment to look at dresses (just to get an idea) this weekend, and she said she isn't sure if she can come...to be fair, I did make the appointment less than a week ago so I can understand. But, I also made another appointment at a different boutique for a MONTH from now, told her about it so that she has enough time to look at her schedule and see if she can come (it's all of 25 minutes from our respective homes) and she said NOTHING. I went to one dress appointment by myself (to get over the initial anxiety of dress shopping lol) and sent her a picture of the dress that I LOVE...she sends back "it's cute...just hope they can take it up enough to look good" The HELL?! Yes, I am 5'1 and yes, the dress will need to be taken up, but I also plan on wearing 4 1/2 inch heels. I just feel like she could've kept that comment to herself. The other 2 bridesmaids that I sent the picture too, gushed over it and said I looked amazing. *sigh*
Anytime I try to talk to her about all this, she just keeps saying that she's surprised how "not understanding" I'm being of her schedule and her situation with the kids. Keep in mind, I lived with her for 3 months and have helped raise ALL 3 of her children. Not only that, but I have also cancelled my own plans to help her out and have done so much to help her and the kids, that this really hurts. I don't know what to do at this point. I don't want to ruin our friendship, and I don't want to not have her in, or at, my wedding....but I don't know what to do. I don't know how to tell her how much this hurts me and that I feel like she doesn't want to be a part of it.
Am I being a Bridezilla or overreacting? This has been, to be honest, the biggest stressor of everything thus far.