I'm having a problem with my wedding party. My MOH quit because she was afraid she wouldn't be able to make it because of the date and didn't want to mess everything up down the road. My parents are paying for the wedding, so I really didn't get much of a say with the date, and there is absolutely no way that my fiance and I could afford to pay for it, I just graduated college and my fiance is still in school. Anyway, the ex-MOH doesn't live near me, but was very excited and involved, texting me all the time about it. I know that technically the MOH only has to buy the dress and show up, but she volunteered to be there for me without me even asking for her help. Now she won't even talk to me. She told me she was afraid she wouldn't be able to be there so would rather not do it via text, while I was at work, which made it even worse. She was my best friend so this really sucks. I was absolutely clueless about all the wedding stuff until she agreed to be my MOH and set me straight. Now I'm kind of clueless again. I honestly would have preferred if she pulled out later if she had to, at least she would have been there for me through everything and could honestly say she tried her best to make it. I offered to help her find reasonably priced flights and accommodations, I offered to help her pay for things because it was important to me to have her by my side.
I sent really heartfelt cards to the people I asked and now I just feel stupid. Only one of my friends said yes, she lives in California (I live in NY), another who lives in Georgia said she's not sure she'll be able to afford it, which I understood, but then I found out she is planning on booking a trip to Barbados the same month, so I'm not sure she's being truthful about that. Another didn't say anything so I'm not sure if she even received it because we've been talking all the time since then, so I don't even know what to make of that. So right now my bridal party is one good friend, my sister who doesn't even like me, my 14 year old brother and 12 year old sister. My fiance has her best man, two best girlfriends and her sister, who she is really close with. I hate to admit it but I'm kind of jealous that her friends stepped up and are there for her and are truly excited for her, and that she has a great relationship with her sister.
I just feel like I'm realizing my friends aren't who I thought they were, except for one, and I'm not going to have who I thought were my best friends by my side at the wedding like I had dreamed of. My fiance's family has a lot of drama too and all of this is really weighing on me and makes me just want to get the wedding over with. I've even seriously talked with my parents about cancelling it because of the drama with my friends and my fiance's family, but they would lose a lot of money and I'm not about to do that to them. I haven't done anything wedding related since my MOH quit, I'm just not excited anymore, there's too much going on. My dad said that I'm so out of the box already so it doesn't matter if I even have a bridal party, but I just wanted to be in a box for once, if that makes any sense. Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks.