Okay so I am posting this here because it's too long for the other thread. It's not really just a confession but I haven't known what to label it and I need to get it out so here is my Confession/AW/Rant/WTF/IDK.
So I mentioned in the Friday thread that we were going to Countryfest on Sunday. Basically a full day of drinking/tailgating in a parking lot followed by a huge country concert. I had too much to drink, as did BF. I wasn't feeling good, basically I knew I had pushed it so I stopped drinking and switched to water, but it made the hangover come quickly. So instead of dancing and enjoying the concert as I should have, I was standing back against the chair and singing occasionally.
BF was feeling good. REAL GOOD. He wasn't being obnoxious as he has in the past, but it was obvious that he was drunk. We were with our friends who are married and they had been on his case all day asking when he was going to make a move and propose already. So he and the friend left to get water and go to the bathroom, and BF expressed to friend (E) that he was ready to propose and was going to do it. E then said okay let's go and you can do it now. BF was unsure because he wasn't prepared and didn't have a ring but E convinced his that it was okay we could get one later.
So BF and E come back with waters and all of a sudden BF is down on one knee with tears rolling down his face. He asked me to marry him. I knew that he was drunk, and I was feeling like ass myself, so all I could do was ask "are you sure? Is this real?" He got up off the ground and we sat in the seats to talk. Mind you this whole time the concert was going on so we could barely hear anything. Turns out he even texted my parents asking their permission. My step father responded "Of course! And Tessie just told me she wants you to make it legit" and my mother said "If you really mean it then yes, if you are drunk then I think you should wait."
BF was upset that I wasn't jumping up and down for joy but I was just trying to process the entire thing. He ended up walking away to find a quiet spot and think. I found him and we talked about it. He just kept saying "I'm just scared. I know this is something I want to do, I'm just scared. You know I can't make commitments, even to what kind of TV I want to buy (that was a 100% true statement). I told him that I was overjoyed that he wants to get married but that I felt it was a conversation that needed to be had sober.
Fast forward to last night. I got home from cheer and we were going to have our discussion over preparing and eating dinner. My mom called. She and my step-father wanted to know if we were in fact engaged or what the plan was. They were so eager and giddy. I told her that BF and I needed to have a conversation and then we would get back to them.
We had our sober discussion and BF said that he didn't do it just because he was drunk but that he is ready to make the commitment and get engaged. He also expressed that it is important for him to have a ring and be prepared and have a thought out proposal. I agreed and expressed my feelings that it does not have to be something elaborate in the least but I would like for him to be completely sober. BF was extremely embarrassed and feels like he ruined the whole process. I don't feel it was ruined, but I am glad that we were able to have an open honest discussion about it and get on the same page. So after our discussion, we are not engaged, but it is right around the corner.
Sorry for the novel!
CN: BF got drunk at the concert and proposed. The next day we had a sober conversation that it was not how either of us wanted it to go, and we are not engaged, but it is right around the corner.