I do want to say I appreciate the comments and personal stories below, it was a good "just breath" moment. Finally opened up to my FI and after some clarity and continued clarity I feel all that much better about having those few people who matter most and have impacted/shapped my life in such a way at my wedding.
Many wishes to all the future Brides/Grooms on the Wedding 911 Board,
Daniel
Re: Thank you to everyone for the advice
I'm glad his friends try to act as though they want to be involved in the planning but with it me against them who knows. Just can't help feeling lost and wonder if I'll get back to feeling that "magic" of planning our wedding day
It was a beautiful wedding. I wouldn't do anything differently.
Many of us come from odd families. I am 63 years old, and still have to deal with family craziness. It is especially hurtful when it involves money.
Try to remember that you are marrying the love of your life. Enjoy your wedding. It sounds like there are people in your family that you wouldn't want to be there, anyway. I was so thankful that my racist mother didn't come to daughter's wedding! I now have a beautiful blond grandson with Asian eyes.
I can understand how you are feeling as in the early stages of my wedding planning I also worried about "my side". I have grown very close to my FI's family and they welcome me as if I have always been there, but there were times where I would look at the list and see how little of "my side" would be there and did feel a bit hurt.
It's good to take a step back and look at the people that are current in your life and you know love you and support you. I am at the point where I could care less if "my side" shows up or doesn't. I will have the people who have been around, especially my future husband. Which in the end is really about the two of us.
As PPs said before, enjoy your wedding with your future husband!