These last few months have been an overwhelming, emotional roller coaster. I just needed to sort my thoughts for a moment.
In June I graduated then moved to a different state where I knew no-one for an amazing job opportunity. Finding a job, finding a place to live, and picking out furniture for the first time was all stressful. Then moving further away from FI and realizing we won't live in the same state for two more years was extremely emotional.
During this time, my best friend (MOH) who just moved across the country to live with her BF just stopped responding to texts and phone calls. We used to talk every weekend, usually both days, and often during the week. She is dealing with trying to find a job after graduation so I haven't been discussing my wedding or anything. I've tried to be there for her. I did get a birthday card and graduation card from her, but I really just miss talking to her.
Last time she called, I brought it up nicely. I said I missed talking to her and wish we could schedule time to talk more. She basically said that because she lives with BF, she can't call when he is home because she feels bad giving her attention elsewhere. That can't be healthy, right? I call people all the time when FI was home (when we lived together). Balance in life is important. I'm just super bummed because I can't do anything about it and so basically now I only get phone calls if she goes grocery shopping by herself.
I'm also bummed because my grandma just had another stroke. She is slowly deteriorating and has told us so many times that she just wants to die now because she hates just slowly getting worse and hates being on bed rest with no hope of ever getting up (she hasn't really been able to walk in a year or so). She hates not being able to hear much or see very well. Apparently after this more recent stroke, she has only been able to see shadows and blobs. My heart just aches for her and for my dad, who has to watch his mom slowly waste away.
To end on a happier note, I have gone down 2 jean sizes this summer and officially lost 20 lbs. So I'm going dress shopping this weekend with a new, now close friend from work. I'm excited because we just clicked as friends and are planning camping trips, kayaking trips, and tubing trips. I'm going to teach her how to shoot and she's going to up my fishing skills. I have a hard time making friends, so I'm extremely excited to have made her as a friend so quickly.
Sorry about the novel. My emotions are all over the place right now.