I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who offered me advice and kind words regarding my "torn" posts.
Everything is fine now. Although "Paul" didn't come with me to the Epilepsy Walk last Sunday, I went with some of my high school friends, "John" included and had a GREAT time! Paul had a "Daddy Day" with his kids.
John is coming to the wedding, and is very excited!
After talking to Paul he assured me that his feelings about John have nothing to do with him being gay. He was upset about the fact that he was pre judged. I told him that he has to let go of it. He said he will, for me.
All in all, things are much better now, and I'm feeling excited again. We're going to order our invitations and I'm going out with my mother soon to get wedding shoes!
Thank you, again to all of you! It's nice to know that strangers take time out of their own busy lives to help others.
To those who are getting married this weekend: Congrats and hope you have beautiful weddings. 78 more days for me! :-)