Ever since I had pictured my fiance and I getting engaged, the thought of having a vidaai right after the wedding has been especially painful. Unlike most brides who have one, I truly WILL be leaving my family and will be moving from the US to London. I know that the vidaai will be overwhelming for my family and I and I want it to be a happy day. I know I will cry uncontrollably and my parents will be totally heartbroken. It's a happy day for all of us and I want to skip this. I want to say whatever goodbyes (whether they are symbolic or not) in private. We have a distant family member who also removed the vidaai from her wedding because she didn't want it to bring the occasion down. Every time I see a bride who is having a vidaai knowing she'll be seeing her family on a regular basis, my heart just tightens up. I understand the symbolism of starting a new life, but this would be too much for me.
What should I do instead? Have any of you also considered doing this? It's very hard for me to leave them and has a big issue that we've debated over and over. I have even put off getting engaged because I didn't want to move. I love my parents and brother dearly and we're very close, so this is so difficult for me.