Hello, I need to vent a little...
I got engaged 2 weeks ago with my long time love and we are planning for a 2 year engagement. Problem is...I am a senior finishing my last semester of college, and I am in a really intense major (graphic design...it's definitely not as easy as it seems, and its a competitive program at my school) but anyway. My mom and sister wanted to throw the engagement party ASAP. It's 3 am here in California and the party is gonna be in the noon and I still have ALOT of homework. In fact, I am pretty behind and I am trying my hardest to catch up. I suggested to have my party after my graduate, but I guess they got so excited and wanted to do it right away so it can still be fresh in peoples minds. But it's like the worst time to plan it because we are inundated with a ton of school work, projects, etc. to put together our web and print portfolio and apply for jobs, and for our spring show at the end of the semester. I should be grateful and I honestly truly am, don't get me wrong. I just wish they could have listened to me you know? Plus if we did it after graduation I wouldn't be stressed out or cranky. Also, I have lupus so I have to be careful with my stress levels.
Anyway, it's a 2 year engagement and it's not like we are in a rush. Also, I have to learn to get used to being in the spotlight especially as a bride, because I am pretty shy and get overwhelmed with the spotlight easily. I want like 100–120 people at our wedding and even then it feels like a lot. I guess I also feel awkward with older relatives or my mom and sister's friends finding out I am getting married because they will always see me as a little girl even though I am 25.
Idk, I'm just ranting a bit, but I honestly am grateful that they are doing so much for me. I feel so loved and special. Anyone else feel this way?