Alright everyone, this is probably just a "get it off my chest" kind of post but I'm too embarrassed to say it out loud to anyone I know.
I used to be super calm about everything, go with the flow, no big deal kind of person. In the last two years I have started getting some anxiety, pretty sure it's a social anxiety because it makes my hands sweat and mouth go dry when I have to sit in a conference room or closed in a car with someone that I have to be professional around. It was such an on/off thing for so long I never really did anything about it. Now it has gotten worse, having to sit on a flight and be confined puts me into a tail spin and I LOVE to travel so this is not good! I work from home so it's not a big deal most of the time but when things come up like me having to go to the office for a couple of days the anxiety sets in long before I leave and I can't shake it.
Right now I'm living apart from FI trying to keep the house in order, managing our rental, learning a new job, and trying to plan a wedding. I have no idea if subconsciously this is just too much but I know everyone is busy and people just deal! I feel like all I do is make lists and more lists and things slip and then I don't want to do anything. I think I should talk to someone but the idea of sitting in a room with a stranger makes me want to die a little.
Has anyone else ever felt like they just hit a wall and can't snap the F out of it!? What did you do?