It has been about a month since FI proposed. The outpouring of support from friends and family about our decision has been amazing. Still, there is a part of me that wishes my mother would be here to share in this part of my life. I know she was a romantic and believed in finding the right person to marry. I also know she would have loved FI.
She died 14 years ago when I was still in my teens. For the most part, I live my life without much grief now, but at certain moments, it just wells back up and I am momentarily overcome by it. The other times were my college graduation, when I found out I was pregnant, and during key moments in my daughter's life. Believe me, I am not trying to make a happy time in my life sad, but I do feel like there is a hole that can't be filled by anyone else.
Sorry to be a downer, but I am just really feeling the loss of her again at this moment and would appreciate any kind words, thoughts, vibes you could send my way.
Re: T&P Missing my Mom
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...And I don't really know what else to say, here. I'm useless. I will say that I think it's totally normal and healthy for you to feel sad about not having her here to share this with you, and I hope you don't feel guilty for feeling sad during a "happy" time.
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Hugs to you and do something nice for yourself. I was in a major funk today so I went to my Zumba class and danced away all my stress/anger/frustration. Going to treat myself to a lemondrop martini too.
Just know that your mom is looking down somewhere and very, very proud of you. I'm sure she knew even if you were making a "mess" of life at the time that you would become the woman you are today...and I'm sure she was proud of you then too.
Just know that what you're feeling is normal, and it's OK to miss your mother. Just try to think about how happy she would be for you.
*HUG*
Still here and still fabulous!
</div><div>In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_not-engaged-yet_tp-missing-my-mom?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special%20Topic%20Wedding%20BoardsForum:136Discussion:f0eb9f66-88c0-4261-bb7e-ed97b3649a69Post:99918288-9d3b-4a10-9243-81b8cc41ced2">Re: T&P Missing my Mom</a>:</div>[QUOTE]Maybe she sent him your way? . Posted by jorja86[/QUOTE]
<div>Jorja, I really appreciated what you had to say, and I love this! It would explain why I never gave nice guys a chance until him! ;)</div>