Long story short, my absolute best friend from high school didn’t include me in her wedding. Now I’m engaged and she’s been really involved in my wedding ideas. After some thought, I asked her to be a bridesmaid because I still consider her one of my best friends.
Now my wedding is approaching and hers was a year ago, but I still have this bitterness in my heart about her not picking me and not saying anything about it. The only times she’s mentioned it was when she briefly apologized while drunk and when she told me how she wished she’d picked me over another girl because apparently the other girl flaked.
I feel so so bad for feeling this way. I never said anything during her wedding stuff either because I didn’t want to stress her out or make her feel guilty. But now we’ve been hanging out more in preparation for my wedding and I just can’t get these negative thoughts to go away. The last thing I want to do is cause drama. I haven’t told anyone about this at all.
How do I be mature and shake this off? Or should I talk to her about it to clear the air before my wedding? Or just not mention it to anyone and let time do its thing?
Thank you in advance for any advice!