I had a hellish week last week. My ear pain flared up again, along with a lot of other symptoms on Friday. I just called an audible and stayed home. I even stayed IN my bed, which is unusual, b/c I'll move to the couch most of the time. I had 2 quilts folded up on me to warm. I found out the cat that I loved and left with exDH passed on Friday, as well as another theatre mentor. To say my emotional regulation completely failed is an understatement. I ended up lashing out at someone that...well, it was low-hanging fruit, I was angry, and I did it. It wasn't my finest moment; it was a weak moment. I've put things in place to keep that particular thing from happening again, at least. Slept most of the weekend.
My left ear is aching today and there's actually so much pressure that it's interfering with hearing. It doesn't actually hurt worse though. I'm monitoring it, keeping hydrated, using saline solution, all teh stuff I'm supposed to do. It would be GREAT if the damn mold count would go down. Otherwise, nothing much new. I built my new entertainment system last night and had a meltdown when I realized I was using the tools my dad gave me when I moved out by myself. But it's built and I still like it. Waiting on a new computer to come in so that I can start gaming with friends again. I need something that is just FUN, isn't something I can turn into me "producing" a product (which is what happened with my paper sculputures), and doesn't involve alcohol. It's hard to look at yourself at 45 and realize that you don't know how to have fun.
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