I slept so hard last night, I'm having issues shaking it off. It was a good sleep though. I did manage to force myself to run last night. It's so weird to get back into it; I was like a newborn colt trying to find my stride again: legs everywhere, having to remember to not supinate my feet, etc. I did manage to get back into the rhythm about half way through. Man, walking back up 66 stairs after running though (gym on 1st floor, apartment on 4th) was a bit difficult. I know it'll get easier; I had to take a break on the last flight for a few seconds though. And my toe immediately started hurting again, so I'm going to have to add glucosamine chondrite (sp) back to my supplement regimen (I stretched the ligament in my right big toe badly years ago and it's turned into arthritis. The only way to "fix" it is to take a shot of cortisone in the toe and just....no thank you).
I think I'm having burnout, but it's not b/c of work. It's **waves hands around** all this. I was reading an article that said people are breaking b/c humans need to be able to envision their futures to keep moving through life. With everything happening under this administration, people are not able to do that. It reminds me of what I went through after my divorce. The imagined/planned future with your partner, the retirement, all of the plans, are just wiped away, and you don't know what you're doing tomorrow, much less 1, 5, 10 years from now. I feel the same way now. IDK what to do about it. I've curtailed my social media usage a LOT; I also don't believe I can just stick my head in the sand. I haven't found the balance yet or know if there's even one to find. I'm getting wickedly distrustful of folx too and am starting to approach everyone like they have ill intentions. And living in such a red state, it's really hard to feel like that's the wrong thing to do.
So, anyway, that's a real downer for today, sorry. It's Hump Day at least, so the week is moving on. And I'm going to see The Craft tonight, which I'm looking forward to seeing on the big screen again. Small joys against a flood of harm.
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