I live in MN, my parents live in OR and I came home to visit for a week. On day 2 or so my mom started in again on me. I posted a previous thread where I was adamant about having an outdoor and secular wedding, and even though I told my parents years ago that I am an atheist they won't let it go. So my mom did the usual thing where she just always wanted to get married in a church. Well, I just always wanted to get married outside but I let it slide. Apparently my sister jumped in to tell her to knock it off and she did.
But then the next morning my dad started. We had an uncomfortable conversation where he asked point blank if I am a believer and stuff. I was very honest. This is all stuff that was covered years ago, but apparently they thought it was just a phase or something. My dad said that his conscience won't let him walk me down the aisle. I started crying but kept talking through it. He said that a marriage without God is not a real marriage at all. Oh and basically anyone that says doesn't believe, he doesn't believe that they don't believe. I explained that if I just wanted a free wedding and to make people happy then sure I'd have a church wedding, but that would be really disrespectful to the church, which surprised him but didn't change anything. They are Catholic and I said I think it would be like a nonbeliever taking communion. But worse.
We went for a walk and he said it wasn't easy to do this to me, not easy to make his daughter cry, and then he started crying. You guys don't know him, but that's like seeing John bleeping Wayne cry. He's 72, a rancher, and an ex sea captain. It just doesn't happen. He also told me I'm his favorite (out of 3 daughters, both older), which I don't really want to know and feel is inappropriate and it's confusing since I'm obviously just this huge pain.
I already feel like I'm bending over backwards for them, and now both sides are wondering if it wouldn't be better if they just didn't come. Technically my dad could've married us as a captain, but I didn't ask because I knew he wouldn't go for it. I didn't ask to have it on the property. I have not asked for one penny to help pay for it, or any help planning for it, even though they paid for my sister's. I (or R and I) did plan on having it all the way in OR, in the same county as where they live. Most of the people at the wedding will be coming from MN or similarly far away. I didn't think walking me down the aisle was a huge deal -it's just WALKING- but I guess it is. I feel like a jerk for that now, but we already have a deposit in at the venue and some friends already bought plane tickets.
I haven't talked to R about it yet because I'd rather talk to him in person. I just don't know how to handle this. There is no right answer, except maybe for them to stop being jerks. It's not about walking down the aisle- I always thought that was kind of a weird tradition anyway- but that they won't participate and they will hate every second of it and probably not stay for the reception.