Let me start this by saying I still want to marry my FI. I am just have huge issues with the wedding that had me in tears this morning.
When FI and I first started planning we wanted a small wedding in Vegas with immediate family and close friends. His extended family was excited for us and wanted to join. It did not add that many to the guest list so we talked and agreed to invite them (aunt, uncles, cousins, etc) but since my extended family is large and full of drama we were not inviting them.
A few months ago I was told that my younger brother and his family were probably not going to attend for very selfish reasons that I can't and won't get into. Then my dad's health took a turn for the worst and it looks like my parents will not be able to attend. While that is a HUGE disappointment I understood. Then this morning I got news that my older brother, the one that I thought we be there come hell or high water, cannot attend due to financial troubles.
I just really cannot get excited about my wedding any more. I imagine myself on what should be the happiest day of my life looking at the empty seats that should be reserved for my family and just being reminded of how my family did not think this day was important enough to find a way to be there. I really want to cancel the plans and just elope but since the wedding is only 3 months away I know people have already made plans, booked flights, reserved rooms, and taken time off of work. I don't want to disappoint anyone but at the same time I am feeling hugely disappointed.
