My aunt has been kind enough to host a co-ed bridal shower for me and FI. Whenever she consults me about anything, I always explain that whatever she chooses I am sure will be wonderful to the point I sound like a broken record. She kept pushing me to provide her with a guest list and I explained I need time to ask FI who he'd be comfortable inviting to a co-ed bridal shower from his side of family/friends. She keeps pushing and asks if I'd like to come over to talk about it. I agreed since FI will be able to accompany me and he can let her know then.
However, the invite was not intended to discuss bridal shower details, it was to badger me about my father. She asked me if I was having a first dance with FI. I told her we were planning on it and that we were considering taking dance lessons as a fun date night and to relieve some anxiety for FI. My aunt encouraged taking the dance lessons saying that it would make him more comfortable to dance with his mom. I excitedly agreed that I thought it would be so sweet as I know how excited she is to see her son get married and how meaningful it will be for her. My aunt then quickly sidelined me with, "yes, and you will also have to dance with your father for the same reason." FFS... I can't keep doing this! I just shook my head no as she continued to describe different ways I could do it. She kept repeating how it will only be 30 seconds and that I need to be more considerate of other people's feelings because these things will be remembered long after the wedding. I just kept shaking my head no and looking down at the table because I was getting so upset. Too make matters worse, my fiance didn't support me and said, "yeah, its only 30 seconds."
After they were done, I said, "I am not breaking etiquette with choices in waving these traditions, as that is what they are, traditions. My wedding is not traditional and I don't understand why I have to feel uncomfortable at my own wedding." I later explained that if I have to also wave the first dance tradition as well in order to save feelings, then I will have to do that but I will not be dancing with my father. My aunt then began reiterating some of the concerns my brother has had over the wedding that I am not involving anyone on my side of the family, and as she is apologizing to FI tells me its just about FI's family. I reminded my aunt we have a small family, said brother has been offered to be an usher, my escort down the aisle, a bridal attendant and has declined all offers. I further explained that my other brother hates weddings and FI did not select him to be a groomsmen and that is FI's business. I also reminded her that she has been very involved in the wedding. She then said she supported my brother's decision to not walk me down the aisle while father is still alive. FFS.. I repeated, father will not walk me. My cousin is. I will not be dancing with father. No more discussion on this.
I think I handled it well but its been getting to me and I needed to vent. Sometimes I feel like I am just being selfish and its no big deal, just "30 seconds right?" But, it would mean nothing to me and its not like I am completely excluding him. Just I will not be participating in any of the emotional traditions as they will mean nothing to me and I will be extremely uncomfortable.
Thanks for letting me vent.
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