I was hoping that somehow the hair loss would elude me from the chemo but when giant clumps started coming out in the shower this weekend I knew I had to face it. I'm really glad I got the pixie and it looks so much better and less thin, but it still doesn't "feel" like me--haven't had it this short since I was a toddler! I've always been a collar bone-length, maybe some bangs to be adventurous, kinda gal except for a short time in high school when everyone was getting "The Rachel." It's so strange finding out how attached to my hair I am but I guess I was able to take it for granted! Right now I'm deciding whether to wear my hair short (chemo stops in early August and wedding is early October) or do a wig for the wedding... I just had a "vision" with my hair and dress but now I'm wondering if it'll look strange or even AWish to guests who al know it wouldn't be my real hair. It's silly, but of everything that came with the chemo and diagnosis, the news that I'd lose my hair was the only thing that made me start crying in the doctor's office--and it grows back!
Anyway. Just processing things and getting used to this new look...and preparing for another new look. At least "I got a pixie!" is more fun to say than "I'm losing my hair!"