So FI and I have the house to ourselves tonight. It's the last night of empty house before my parents and 17 year old sister come home from vacation tomorrow. I thought, this morning, that we should....well, we should "use the time appropriately" as we are not particularly likely to have a lot of empty-house time in the future. So I texted FI about nine saying, "Hey, go dig out the box where all our fun stuff is and let's go out to dinner and then make use of all our fun stuff."
Now, at 11:20 (two hours later) this is how my brain is going:
- "He's just humoring you."
- "Why would he want to go out for dinner? He has to put on pants for that."
- "What if he's pissed off at you and wants nothing to do with you today?"
- "You've had empty house for two days and y'all haven't done anything yet. What makes you think he wants that to change?"
- "He probably just wants to sit in peace and play his game. That's more fun anyway."
Now, I KNOW all of these things are stupid. (Except maybe the pants thing.) Like, logically, I have no reason to believe any of them. But I find myself struggling to ignore them anyway. Fun, semi-related fact: these monsters only tend to rear up this badly when I'm trying to initiate some sort of seksytimes. I mean, I'm not GREAT in the self-confidence area, but I don't usually struggle quite so hard with it.
So - yeah... any tips to deal with stupid self-confidence issues crushing my excitement for fun plans tonight??