Last Night

pinkcow13

I'm pretty sure I had a nocturnal panic attack last night. FI and I went to sleep, fairly late, and I was starting to fall asleep. At some point I started feeling horrible. I can't really explain it but I felt dizzy, my head felt weird, and my heart started palpitating like crazy. I even thought I was having a heart attack. Mind you, I was sleeping this whole time. I then felt this horrible, impending sense of doom. It was the worst feeling in the world. I somehow calmed myself down, and it went away for a few seconds, but it returned. Long story short, this whole episode lasted like 1 minute each, 4 different waves as a rough estimate. And it was not a dream.

I then thought I cant sleep through this crap, tried to wake up, and I couldn't. It was like a night terror, and when I finally woke up, I was freaking out, and panicking, and had awoken FI. He had no idea what was going on, nor did I, but I was able to say that I think I may have had a panic attack and I was freaking out. He then helped calm me down and held me until I went to sleep( which took forever).

I have never had a panic attack before and I don't know what triggered it. I'm worried now. A few months ago I started having mild anxiety/ panic episodes while awake. I told FI about them, but they only lasted a few seconds. Then they just went away until last night. I don't know what is triggering this, or what triggered my full blown attack last night. FI thought it may have been due to the stress of my trip. I just don't know if I should try to go to the doctor at this point or just see if I'm fine going forward.

holyguacamole79

I would definitely encourage you to talk to a doctor. It isn't usually easy to get in to see a psychiatrist, so ii would try to get an appointment on the books. I have anxiety, too. PM me if you want some advice.

pinkcow13

Thanks @sarahbear31‌. My BFF thinks I should talk to someone too just in case. FI and I just started watching The Sopranos and I feel like Tony in a way. I wish I could figure out a possible trigger, but I can't. Anything I think of just seems far fetched.

huskypuppy14

If you have a lot of stress, that could be part of it.

I had one panic attack when I was 24 (8 years ago). It was during a period where I had a health scare, my boyfriend broke up with me, I think there was something else, but I don't remember now. Anyway, it happened when I was in the shower, and I had to get out and go lay on my bed, it was terrifying. I never had it happen again though.

I think if this continues you should definitely see a doctor. 

AddieCake

I hope you get it taken care of and that it doesn't happen again!

decembergrl2014

You should definitely see your doctor. I started having panic attacks earlier this year. I'm a teacher and the last one I had was in front of my students in the middle of my lesson. It just came out of nowhere, but I know it was stress related between work and wedding planning. Good luck!

pinkcow13

Thanks guys! Idk I don't think I have major stress compared to other times in my life. And being that I never had a panic attack it is pretty disconcerting and maybe I need to speak to someone just in case.

raissyrais

You're probably quite stressed and your body goes in panic mode in its most relaxed state (sleep)?

Is there any wedding/work related things stressing you out lately? I would see someone about it and maybe do some meditation, drink soothing teas and exercise (or sex!) to calm down a bit before sleep time. It happened to me twice so far to completely stop breathing while I'm asleep but I'm also half conscious so I wake up to gasp for air. It's crazy.

pinkcow13

smichekraissyrais, well we are in the midst of locking down the DJ but that was put on hold while I was away. And today we take our engagement pics! Which has been stressful because we booked the date before I knew about my trip. So I did not get a chance to shop for my outfit, etc until a bit last night (Yesterday was my moms bday so we spent the day with family). I'm at work now for a half day and still have a lot to do so maybe all the stress has been piling up. Hopefully now that I can go back to a normal routine it will help out.