Took the biggest test of my life this weekend

mschristie123

EEEEEEEK. You guys, I sat for the EPPP yesterday morning, which is the licensure exam for clinical psychologists. It took me just under four hours to finish and I walked out feeling like the biggest failure in the world. I sat in the bathroom after the test and cried some self-pity tears before I could even pick myself up to go home. I've been studying 10-15 hours a week since the end of June and I still left the test feeling like I guessed on half of it. Bad news is, I won't find out my score until around November 6th.

Good news is, DH is absolutely most incredible human being. He took SUCH good care of me yesterday! He let me pick whatever I wanted to do, and held me when I cried, and gave me tons of pep talks throughout the day. We tried to go out to brunch and get some drinks after the test, but I was too sad and not wanting to be in public. Instead, we went to the grocery store, bought a shit ton of champagne, and sat around the house all day drinking mimosas and watching movies. He took such great care of me. It was such an emotional, intense day, and I'm so lucky for him.

Days like yesterday make me so happy to have a life partner. This test was probably the biggest hurdle I've had to face since starting grad school and entering my field, and DH supported me so well. So I'm curious... when has your DH/FI really come through for you in a huge way?

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sarawifenow

Congratulations on making it through that test! It's the little victories that help along the way. You have been studying for so long and so intensely, I am not surprised that you had an emotional day.

 

Your H sounds awesome and I am so glad that he took such good care of you. November 6th will be here before you know it!

 

H was so supportive when I lost my grandfather (who was basically my father) and really stepped up for me and my family. We were still bf/gf at the time and had only been dating for about 6 months. His support during that time made me 100% sure he was the one.

melbenso

I'm sure you did great.  I took the first day of the bar exam on 2 hours of sleep - thanks to a friend texting me "good luck" at 2 a.m. and my inability to fall back asleep once she did.  I had consumed so much caffeine to stay awake for the test, once I realized going back to bed was no use, that my hands were shaking so badly my fingerprint had to be taken twice at check in because the first one blurred.  On our lunch break, my friends were talking about the morning's essay questions and I couldn't even remember what they were, despite having just answered them.  I was certain I failed the test.

I did not.  I passed.  And with plenty of room to spare.  I promise you, you did better than you think you did.

falsara

I'm sure you rocked that test Lady!!!

I was having a freak out about one of my midterm presentations last week.  I was just having a hard time starting it because everything I wrote sounded like complete crap.  It was so frustrating for me that I ended up crying on the couch, worrying about failing, since this class only has a grade for the midterm and the Final.  

He held me and talked me through the worrying until I was calmed down enough to actually be productive.  He then made dinner for me and helped me brainstorm so that I had a more cohesive beginning and then he read over my outline.  He then made me take a break and relax, so that I could finish writing the body of it the next day.

It was nice to know that even when I'm being ridiculous by over worrying, he's willing to talk me down, and help me fix it, and then make sure that I could relax enough to be ok later.

redwoodoriginal

Girl, i bet you passed and did awesome. I felt the exact same way after i finished the NCLEX - the nursing licensing exam a few years ago. In fact, i sat on the curb on the street waiting for the bus in the middle of downtown Chicago and just burst into tears as I called my then-BF-now-H, sobbing, convinced I had failed. convinced. convinced. CONVINCED i had failed. 

glad he took such good care of you though.

Nov 6th will be here so soon and then you can celebrate with a fantastic brunch and drinks all day! i have faith!

JennyColada

Hugs hugs hugs!

I'm sure you did great. And even if you didn't, it's not the end of the world. So really, there's nothing to stress about either way. (Gee, that probably magically made you feel better huh!)

I know what it's like to stress even when you shouldn't! But your H is doing so good at being supportive!

ohannabelle

Don't stress! I'm sure that you did even better than you imagined. (I'm always convinced I've failed tests. Sure of it, every time.)

emmaaa

Well at least it is over now! Congratulations on finishing the exam. I will be hoping you did better than you think you did!

And I'm so glad your H took such good care of you and even better that he let you be mopey and sad!

I was sick yesterday and FI let me lay around on the couch all day and try to make me something to eat. Every time I even moved, I would throw up so he wanted so badly for me to eat something and keep it down.

On a bigger scale, when we first started dating my parents had just separated and were going through a divorce. I was a senior in  high school so it took a toll on me mentally and emotionally. FI saw me at my absolute worst during those times and always told me he would never leave me. It made it hard to see my parents' 28 year marriage end and expect any relationship to work. He made sure I knew ours would last.

hellosweetie1015

YOU GOT THAT TEST! Seriously, every time I've thought I failed a test, I did really well. It's the ones you feel super-confident about that you have to watch out for.

When the house burned back in March, FI (then BF) was the first person I called. He asked if I needed him there. I told him no, because he was two hours away and had classes and labs to attend, and at that point we had no idea where we'd be spending the night. We hung up, and twenty minutes later he called and said he'd worked it out with all his teachers and was walking out the door. He stayed with us that night, took me to the nearest convenience store for feminine products and booze, took my mom and I to get our cars from our jobs, and didn't freak out when his alarm turned me into a panicky, sobbing mess.

thisismynickname2

Sending good vibes your way!!!!  There's nothing you can do until you get the news. "Worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do but doesn't get you anywhere." (Van Wilder movie)

Just don't forget your password to the results site like Marshall in How I Met Your Mother. 

DH came through for me right before our engagement... I had an issue with pre-cancer and he took it in stride, took me to the surgery center for a procedure and all that.  For having a father who's twice beaten cancer, I'm surprised he didn't freak out more about my little scare. He's a rock, I tell ya.