I've mentioned this a few times before; I dated a total psycho when I was in high school. He fit every characteristic of a sociopath; he lied, manipulated, convinced me that I was ugly and worthless, convinced me my own family and friends didn't even like me, convinced me no one would ever love me, and beat the crap out of me. After I broke up with him he stalked and harassed me for years and even tried to strangle me to death. The restraining order didn't help at all.
Things got better when I went away to college. I blocked his email address, his phone number, and blocked him from my social media accounts. Because of him I also had to cut off contact with almost all of my friends from high school because he would use them to get information on me. Sometimes they didn't even realize that's what he was doing. And he'd still find creepy ways to get to me. After I blocked his number, he'd steal other people's phones and call me. To this day I do not answer the phone if I don't recognize the number.
I've had friends of his tell me that he was so desperate to find me, or find information on me, that they stopped hanging out with him because they were so disturbed by his behavior and his obsession with me. The last time I heard anything about any of this, though, was about 6 years ago. To me, all this trauma is dead and gone. It's in the past, it doesn't affect me anymore, and I'm ok now. I'm in a good place and in a healthy relationship, and I like my life and like who I am as a person. It took me years to recover from what he did. At one point -- in the midst of his torment-- I had to be on multiple anti-anxiety and anti-depressant medications and my hair was falling out from stress.
Well, a little bit ago I saw that I had a friend request on facebook from some girl I'd never even heard of. Her last name was the same as psycho's last name. Out of curiosity, I clicked on her photo, and sure enough there she was with psycho. Apparently she's his wife. Why the fuck would that guy's WIFE want to add me on facebook? Why. Obviously he still talks about me all these years later (we broke up 11 or 12 years ago and my last direct contact with him was probably 10 years ago) because obviously his wife knows who I am. Why does he still mention me? Just why. Why do I even cross his mind? Even back when he used to stalk me I never understood why he even cared enough to spend the effort. Why pay any attention to me at all? What's the point?
I just feel like my personal world has been invaded. I blocked his wife and made sure he's still blocked too. I don't understand how she even found me, because I have so many privacy settings that when I searched for myself on my friend's computer, even I couldn't find me on facebook. And I'm pissed that it's bothering me this much. I'm pissed that I'm even spending time thinking about it. I just went through and deleted people that could potentially still be connected with him, because I don't want him knowing one single thing about me. This is just being back way too many terrible memories and I fucking hate it.
