This is not MUD for any of you that may think so, this is the soild truth of the most wonderful day of my life.*************
Okay so the wedding did not turn out they way it was suppose to be but it's okay I am still married to the most wonderful person in my life. So here is the DL on what had happened starting with the wedding rehearsal.
Friday was a mess for me to begin with. I called my mom and asked about my Aunt, who was in ICU due to Kidney failure, well...lets say that it was not going good. Her condition was getting worse. (Now this is the aunt that has graph vs host disease and was diagnosed with stage 4 liver cancer). Well I try and get everything ready in a rush as tears are running down my cheeks. My best guy friend, Daniel, who was also the best man, helped me pack as well. I drove an hour and a half to go see my aunt. MY DH met me there and we stayed by my aunt's side until it was time to go to rehearsal.
When we were at the hospital, I talked to the nurses and they let us set up Skype for my Aunt to watch the wedding. I also told my family members that if they prefer to be at the hospital then the wedding I understand and will not be mad since I prefer to be at the hospital with my Aunt.
Well that night I stayed at one of my BM house and we got our nails done. My cousin, who is my flower girl, passed out after getting her nails. My mom showed up at my BM's house and called my sister and I out to talk to us. My mother told me that my Aunt had about 3 days left to live. I told my mom that I wanted to cancel the wedding. I could not do it with my Aunt in the hospital dying. My mother told me that my aunt would be really upset if I canceled my wedding and think that I did it because of her being sick and she would not want to do that. My mom told me that my aunt was looking forward to this wedding and she would want me to do it. So i nodded my head, put on a face and said i would do it.
Saturday came around, we started with my hair at 8am, while we were having pancakes. From there, we went to the church and the rest of the girls got ready. My parents bought our lunches and we ate in the area that we were getting ready.
As the time got closer I actually started to get nervous. My Aunt Tanya and my cousin Paula showed up and told me that the connection to skype was not working and that we need to do the connection on this end. I told them that DH was in charge of that. So they went upstairs to get it ready. A few minutes later they came back down and said everything was hooked up. I asked them about my aunt and they made a sad face and said, "Sammy...It's getting worse." I started to cry but Paula looked at me and told me that I could not cry, that I had to keep on a brave face and not smear my make up since I was going to go see her after the reception.
Finally the time came and I went down the aisle before my friends and family. As I was walking down to meet my DH, My best guy friend since I was 16, Aaron (also and usher) was holding the lap top for my Aunt to see. I smiled at her and held back the tears. Everything seemed to be going perfect. After the vowels and we were presented, as my DH and I were walking down the aisle, I waved at my Aunt and she waved back.
The skype held all through the wedding and then we lost sound from them after, I thanked God for making sure everything worked for her.
The reception set up was designed by me, and everyone thought it was beautiful, but the set up crew had a problem with it since it was not cleaned and everything in place like promised, so Tuesday my DH is going to call the place and gripe to them for not keeping their promise. Yet, still the crew got everything done and I thank them a lot, from the bottom of my heart! Without them it wouldn't have been done.
Well, the party cleaned up and would not let me do anything and from there DH, myself, Aaron and our photographer who is aaron's gf (jess) headed to the hospital to see my aunt. DH and I were still in our tux and dress, walked to the ICU and back to her room. We walked in and had to wake her up since the pain meds were making her sleep. I smiled and showed her my dress, I even twirled for her. DH showed her his spify tux. I told her about the wedding and was happy that she got to see it, I told her about the reception and how good the cake was and the food. I told her about our dance and doing the chicken dance with the wedding party. We had soo much fun. Then I turned to Jess and asked to see if she could get a photo of us 3 for my aunt. Jess snapped the photo as we smiled. I leaned in and started to cry. My aunt asked me why I was crying and I told her it was because I was happy, but in reality it was because I knew this was my goodbye to her.
I kissed her and told her that I loved her so much. I also told her that we were going on our honeymoon (the only reason I did was because I knew that she would of made me go anyhow) and that I would see her on Thursday when we got back. I hugged her one more time and she told me a word of advice. Not to go to bed mad, to talk everything out and to love each other unconditionally. I nodded and told her that I would. I stepped out of the room and started to cry harder on Jess's and Aaron's shoulders. My aunt talk to my DH and said his goodbye.
Today, Jess got the photo done and printed for my mom to pick up. My mom went and got it and it is currently sitting in her living room right by my Aunt's bed.
I love my Aunt, and I am doing what she expects me too, so please don't judge me. It hurts to be away from her in this time, but I know it is something that she wants me to do. She got to see my wedding, which is what she wanted, and I even told the corroborator that I would not start this wedding until the skype was working so she could see it. I got to get the photo I wanted and I got to say goodbye and tell her how much I love her.
There will be a funeral when I get back from my honeymoon, I know that but no one will hold it against us that we are on it.
I love you Aunt Lane....may you rest in peace and not hurt anymore. I know you will be watching over me.