Whiny post about nothing, proceed with caution.
This is kind of stupid and lame, but... I am invited to a friend's wedding, lets call her A. Couple years ago, A , myself and a third friend, K, used to be very close - the three of us hung out all the time, and I felt like they were some of my closest friends here (this was when I was still fairly new in this country, and newly single after a bad breakup).
Fast forward a few years to today... I have definitely been sensing that we have somewhat grown apart - I know, this happens, and thats OK. But I guess it hurts a bit that the two of them are actually as close as ever, in fact I just heard that K is A's bridesmaid. I mean, I didn't expect to be one... It just hurts a little I guess. Neither of them are my bridesmaids. I don't know what I'm actually asking here. I guess I feel a bit like the girl Monica and Phoebe "cut out" in Friends, if anyone remembers, and wondering if I have done anything wrong.
It got me thinking though - I'm not sure if I ever will be anyone's bridesmaid. My one best friend is getting married this fall and she is not having a bridal party. My other best friend is in Europe and its not really a tradition there...and FI's sisters may or may not want me to be one (which would be totally fine if not, they are mine but I know its not tit-for-tat). Other close friends are already married (got married young, before I met them; or, again did not have a bridal party because back home it is not a custom). To me, it is such a beautiful tradition (thats why I am including it in my own wedding), I wish I could have been there for one of my friends in this way...
Ok I think I'm done whining now. Please tell me that I'm being ridiculous.
- The stars, like dust, encircle me in living mists of light. And all of space I seem to see in one vast burst of sight.