The day of my wedding, I was so happy and excited about everything. I didn't even care that my cake wasn't the exactly correct design (they left off some gold detailing I'd asked for). In all my pictures, I look blissfully happy.
Now that I'm about 2 months post-wedding, all I can think about are things that went wrong, tiny details that I didn't like (down to hating the way my sash was tied - the bow was WAY to long), and things I would have done differently. I'd wanted an evening wedding, but we ended up having it when it was still really bright outside because I got talked into having it a little bit earlier. Again, before the wedding, I was like "Eh, it's okay if it's still daylight... No big deal." Now, I'm kicking myself for not pushing for what I wanted.
I don't want to seem negative, or that I'm not happy in my marriage. I truly am! I just don't know what's wrong with me! Anyone else have this? I've never been a spoiled brat or a bridezilla. I was very laid back pre-wedding. How do I get over this!?! I need some advice on how to redirect my focus to something else and to go back to seeing my wedding in a positive light!
I feel awful for feeling this way. I love my husband and my marriage. I just wish we could have had a wedding "run-through" first so that I could fix everything that I didn't like the first time, and then have a second chance to get it perfect. Haha!
Please give advice gently without telling me I'm being petty or selfish. I don't need to hear that - I already feel horrible, and I'm posting this to get some constructive advice on how to let go and move on to happier things...
