Im out of the psych ward smile emoticon I feel better. 5 days in the ward and lots of reflection later I feel better and much more calm. I am on medication and psychiatric treatment.
My parents were driving me crazy with their BS and going behind our back and not taking no for an answer. 2 "adults" who act like fucking teenagers are a bit too much. On top of everything my mother's safety is/was at risk with her douche of a BF who did not allow her to go out of the house other than for work or talk to her best friend.
It wasn't just my parents, our former decorator threw a bomb at us. I called her on Friday to let her know we had found someone else (she had been postponing our talks since the first week of May "after Mother's day" "I want you to be calm, we'll talk after you are done with school"). Well when I called her, she cut me off and didn't let me talk. She started to tell me since we were so close to the wedding she had ordered everything and she had paid for everything and she NEEDED us to pay her.
We never signed a contract nor gave her a deposit because she kept postponing stuff and she kept pushing off sending me the contract and last time I spoke to her she had told me there were things missing from the quote she had sent me months ago....
Why would she do that I have no idea, but it put a immense amount of stress and anxiety on me on top of everything else with my parents and I didn't do well on my last exam.
So I couldn't deal and I needed help. But now I am better and more organized. Fi has been great with everything and he dealt with a ton of shit he really didn't have to, but he did. He stuck up for me and told my parents off on their BS as well as the decorator, who might try to sue us.
So almost a week later I am back, stronger, and more confident, calm and organized.
Just wanted to let you guys know since you have been such a great guide and support system.