My best friend of 15 years was diagnosed with cancer less
than a month ago and passed away this week. It was quick, shocking, and
brutal. Life is a nightmare, and has been the past month. I’m getting
married in two weeks, and though I don’t care about it right now, too many things are in motion, it
will still have to happen and I think she would be upset if it didn’t. My
question: how do I still make her a part of my wedding? A lit candle seems underwhelming.
Is it crass to ask for donations to her baby's college fund instead of
gifts? Probably. I don’t know what to do. Nothing will make her be there, but I want to
think of her and I want others to think of her and know what a huge part of my (our actually, my fiance loves her too) life she is. I'm not really sure how I'll make it through the day, but maybe I'll go into robotic auto-pilot. I thought some people might have an idea I can’t. I'm sorry, this is an enormously depressing post.