I'm not sure where else to post this, but I'm having a hard time with wedding-related anxiety.
Brief summary: I just wanted to elope, I hate being the center of attention. My FI's mother is contributing to the wedding, so FI has made most of the major decisions and I've just gone along behind making sure we observe etiquette and dealing with the vendors.
I am excited to marry my FI. We've been together for almost 8 years. I love him, and can't wait to be his wife. I just feel ill when I think about all of the money we are spending (we aren't going into debt, but there are dozens of things I would have rather done than throw a wedding, even a small one) and I worry about our guests and if they will enjoy the whole thing. We are hosting them properly, I know logically that the people whom we have invited are so happy for us and are looking forward to the occasion.
Less than 90 days to go and I am just not feeling excited about the whole thing. I've talked to FI but he doesn't understand where I am coming from at all. He loves the whole idea of the wedding, he's delighted with all of the plans and doesn't have a care in the world.
To top it all off my grandparents recently sold their farm and don't have anywhere to go (my grandpa impulsively listed it and then surprise, it sold in like 5 days). They hate every single seniors accommodations they have looked at, and they have to be out of their farm by 2 weeks before my wedding. My extended family (particularly my mom, the eldest girl) is in total chaos over it, and they expect me to take on a big portion of helping with the move "because I'm not working right now". While that's true, I'm basically single-handedly doing all of the wedding things, and FI are moving shortly after the wedding as well. I also have 2 teenagers that are going through a bunch of teenager stuff. I'm not working, but my business partner and I are growing our Etsy shop and planning to do some farmers markets this summer. I love my grandparents and I want to help them as much as I can, but I don't think I can take on as much as my family thinks I should.
It's just a lot. I know everyone has a lot. It's just a wedding. I want it to be a nice wedding, I want the next few months to go smoothly, I just feel like it's not going to and I don't know what to do about the feeling of impending failure.