Dear Prudence,
I’ll go ahead and admit that I’m writing in for a “please tell me I’m not crazy” check. I introduced my best friend Dana to one of my new friends, Taylor, a couple of years ago. Dana and Taylor became close quickly. Afterward, Taylor and I had a very nasty friend-breakup due to some very hurtful things she did and kept doing over time, that she refused to apologize for or even consider changing. We haven’t talked in years, and I honestly thought Taylor and Dana’s friendship had drifted during the pandemic and that this was all moot.
Well, Dana has started talking about the social events she’s going to do now that the pandemic is over … and there’s two of everything, so that Taylor and I can’t cross paths. I do mean absolutely everything, including her literal wedding! She’s going to have the ceremony privately to avoid all of us having to be in the same room, and have two receptions. I have reassured Dana that no, I am not going to argue or fight with Taylor at the wedding if we’re both there. I know how to shut up and not ruin an event. Dana doesn’t care. She says it’s less stressful to just isolate us and spend copious time and resources keeping us apart so she doesn’t have to think about potential conflict. I get that she can have a private ceremony if she wants, but I can’t help feeling like one of us is causing her issues, her life would be smoother without that person, and she needs to pick who it is. Obviously, I’d like it to be me, but I guess she could pick Taylor and dump me.
I’m not asking how I can change Dana’s mind. I’m asking whether Dana even really thinks of me as a good friend at this point, and whether her going enormously out of her way to keep Taylor around is a sign that I’m just not important to her. Am I a jealous jerk? Dana and I just avoid the topic of Taylor, but now it feels like Taylor is haunting me. I’ve been avoiding asking Dana about these questions, because I know that whoever explicitly asks a friend to choose sides is the one who loses. But has Dana picked a side, and it’s not me? Is it okay that Dana doesn’t seem to care that Taylor hurt me that badly?
—She Hurts Me, Do You Care?