The last few years were really difficult. I got COVID early on and suffered from long-COVID for almost a year. During that time, I reassessed my priorities and decided I wanted to take 12-18 months to travel the world. I started saving up and finally hit my minimum goal a couple weeks ago. I had always planned to start traveling no more than a couple of months after I reached my money goals. I had always wanted to travel around New England during autumn, so now’s the time.
The only problem is that during the spring I met a guy. We definitely hit it off, but I was busy working and not very social, so nothing really came of it until about three months ago. I expected it would be a fling. It’s gotten more serious. I’ve never really wanted to get married, but I see a future with him. I love him in a way that I didn’t realize was possible. He, however, cannot travel with me. He has not been saving like I have and even if he did have the funds, he’s a teacher and can’t travel for most of the year. Neither of us want to have a long-distance relationship at this stage.
I’m feeling very torn. I’m worried that the best possible future I could have is with him. A part of me is also worried that denying myself my travel dream will cause me to have some kind of a mid-life crisis. I don’t want to wait until retirement to do my dream trips and most of the trips I want to take wouldn’t be possible with time off I would get at a regular job. I know this guy could still be there when I get back, but he also could not be, and I’m worried he might even resent me for leaving him, not for anything he’s done, but just because that’s how people are sometimes. How do I go about making this decision?