Prudie Day

ei34

How's everyone?  I'm dragging, but glad it's Friday Eve.

ei34

Meet the Teacher Night was nice.  Admin is doing a catered lunch in a couple hours which will be nice.  SSDD otherwise.

charlotte989875

I’m dragging, too. It’s a home Bills game tonight so I’m trying to get out of the office early. The schools have early release (like slightly early because of all the traffic we don’t want them stuck in busses during game day jams) but M still has after school rec so that’s good. 

Otherwise work is chaos but that’s apparently the norm now. 

VarunaTT

I am exhausted.  I just haven't been sleeping well.  I'm considering deleting all of my social media, but there are some downsides to that.  I'm just a wreck between the outside world and my inside world.  The inside world is starting to get calmed down, but the outside world isn't and ugh.  I'm spinning myself in circles.

Today is my Friday.  Tomorrow I'm getting my things ready for the big garage sale we're having.  A friend of mine has organized the entire thing, halleloo, and there will be 5-6 of us.  We're also in a good location, so hopefully I make some good $$.  What doesn't sell will be donated.  Then I've got one last "buy these things to make life easier" stuff and I'll be finished.  I'm just ready to be settled for a bit.  Harley is doing much better now that she's in a space with just us and is allowed to be a cat without someone fussing at her every breath.

Otherwise, just trying to get through my work day.

Casadena

At offsite meetings all day and just tired. I will likely flat out refuse to travel for the next few months. I just want to be home. Tomorrow I have to take the car for a oil change and work from the dealership for a bit, then am getting a haircut - might go crazy and get the wipsy/curtainy bangs so many people are doing this fall. Maybe just a trim. Choice will be dictated by my mood tomorrow afternoon, lol. 

G had a scuffle with a buddy yesterday - he tends to internalize hurt feelings and take it out on all of us (he's 5, i get it). But he was in an absolute MOOD this morning. H never handles that well and gets in stupid fights/really digs in on little things - he needs to be the bigger person and not do the same things bc the kids hurt his feelings. (I totally get that it's not fun when kiddos scream at you and say mean things - but they're 4 & 5, not 37) Doesn't help that they both woke up almost a full hour earlier than normal today - i'm bracing for this evening to be rough. 

Looking forward to a short yoga session after bedtime and then a glass of wine and hopefully finishing my book!

mrsconn23

I am exhausted. I was up at 230a and could not quiet my mind until I put in my earbuds and listened to a fluff podcast (bravo related).  Work is slow, so I’m just propping my eyelids open. Thankfully, we have standing desks, so I can opt to stand if I’m getting too sleepy. 

We watched the first episode of Task (HBOMax) last night.  It was really good. I do love Tom Pelphrey and Mark Ruffalo. 

Ready for my WAH day tomorrow and we have a busy weekend coming up. 

ILoveBeachMusic

I have book club tonight. I just finished making the salad I'm taking. It's a Lidia Bastianich recipe and new to me. It is pasta with tomatoes, fresh mozzarella and pesto. We have a ton of basil, so glad I could use up some of it.

I have been thinking about exiting social media too. The country is so depressing right now, I can hardly stand it. But as Varuna  said, there are also some downsides to doing that. 

The back and hip seem to be doing a little bit better maybe 20-30%. I see the surgeon next week.

MyNameIsNot

I'm just drained today. I found out that the reorg impacts are a lot wider than I'd originally expected. Everyone are just zombies today. 

Also, it's hot again, so I'm extra whiney.

levioosa

I'm in the same boat with social media. One one hand, I fully recognize that it has become so toxic, and it's terrible for our mental health and attention spans. That being said, it is a regular source of news and also provides more in depth takes and nuances at times that mainstream news either doesn't cover or won't cover (not to sound conspiracy theorist, I think news as a medium had no clue how to evolve with social media). I also do find it really funny at times and there are some really informative videos out there (for example I love archeology and TheCultureMuse has so many interesting videos). But truly I feel the cons are starting to outweigh the pros. It's used for data collection, surveillance, and more nefarious reasons. But I'm struggling with how to stay informed while protecting my peace. And there's not much peace left these days. I don't want to be an ostrich, but I feel my mental health being destroyed to the point where I feel like literal long term health risks are happening from the chronic stress. It's not normal and it's not healthy to live on high alert all the time. I've definitely decreased usage, but it's still there. Just...ugh. 

Not too much else happening here. Thinking of everyone who is struggling today. 

VarunaTT

EXACTLY that, @levioosa.  

mrsconn23

I think about quitting SM all the time. I canceled all news notifications after the election and I don’t use Twitter unless it’s for something very specific. My main issue is threads. I don’t get much on IG or FB besides friends/family content or ads (but no rage bait for the most part), but I doomscroll threads. 

I also have curtailed most podcasts to tv/entertainment or pop culture news (which has seen some politics creep, but it’s everywhere now).  I listen to IHIP news, and even take breaks from them when it feels too much. 

My mental health tanked when I laid off and I was just scrolling and spiraling daily. It’s better now, but I still catch myself a time or two a week. 

CharmedPam

I would be lost without sm. But like you, MrsConn, I have my algorithm is set to a lot of kid videos (ya’ll got to see Charlie and Austin Miles Greter skits), comedy and entertainment. I bet I would save a TON of money by not buying from the ads if I didn’t have it. It tells me everything I NEED, not want 😉

i had the weirdest date last night. About 1 hr before leaving I got into a bad mood because I could have sworn I canceled my hair loss meds from “hers” but I checked my cc statement and they charged me another 5 months. I don’t need or want it. But alas, it was my fault because I didn’t cancel like I thought I did. I sent them an email suggesting they give a courtesy email that reminds customers their order is about to ship before they process it. I hate companies that don’t send those out!
anyway I just didn’t want to go. But I’m not one to cancel that late so I threw something on and didn’t really invest in my face. And by that, I mean everything went on but the hard to wash off mascara. Lol. 

We met. We talked. We actually talked on the phone beforehand and he did tell me he’s a widower so I knew that. However, later on he confessed she passed away REALLY recently on Aug 1st and wasn’t ready to date but didn’t know what to do with himself as he wants to meet people. We agreed to stay in contact as friends and I suggested a place like meetup for him. So it wasn’t a horrible night, it’s just never happened to me where I met someone on a dating app - but didn’t want to date. Facebook dating has a “friends” section and he found me on the dating side. His profile DOES say he’s looking for a like minded companion to explore life together.  I think this would confuse a lot of people, including myself.  Amiright? 

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charlotte989875

Yup that’s super confusing @CharmedPam. I would have so much compassion for him but also- that’s super unclear. 

short+sassy

@ei34, I meant to ask you the other day.  You said you were approved to read tests in Italian.  Do you speak it fluently or is it okay to be familiar enough with pronunciations?  That always amuses me about Spanish.  I took enough Spanish classes that I could read a book out loud and know how to pronounce most of the words even though I wouldn't know what 90-95% of them meant!

I had the worst low blood sugar of my life yesterday morning and I'm still feeling upset and shaken by it.  It was terrifying and I couldn't help myself at all.  I'm so glad my H was home.  It started at 6:30am...probably earlier, but that was when I woke up...and it was three hours before it finally started rising.  I couldn't really move or speak.  But the worst part was I had trouble swallowing and that was what I needed to do to get Coke or glucose gels into my system.  On a small positive, I was "with it" enough to realize how much trouble I was in so I was working with my H instead of trying to fight him away.  I don't even know why it happened!  I was "80, headed straight" the night before.

Even when my BG got back into a normal range, I felt awful for the rest of the day.  I was exhausted from struggling, crying, and being scared for hours.  I told my H after the fact, that he probably should have taken me to the ER.  Since everything worked out "fine" in the end, I'm glad he didn't.  Because it would be infuriating to be charged 1500+ bucks just to be hooked up to a glucose IV.  But it's too dangerous if I'm only able to choke down one glucose gel an hour and I might not be okay if there is a next time.  

levioosa

@short+sassy I'm so sorry that happened. How scary. Do you have a continuous glucose monitor? 

mrsconn23

Omg @short+sassy! That is so scary! Agreed with @levioosa, do you have the continuous monitoring? 

short+sassy

levioosa said:

@short+sassy I'm so sorry that happened. How scary. Do you have a continuous glucose monitor? 

I do, but not one that sends off alarms.  I have an awful high-deductible insurance plan.  I already have to pay $75/month OOP for the sensors on the older CGM I have.  If I upgraded to one with alarms, it would jump up to $152/month.  AND I would have to buy a new and more expensive cell phone, because my current one won't work with their system.

I almost never have low BG.  In my 31 years with T1, there are only six I would call bad, though yesterday was the worst.  I was alone for 4 of them and 3 were ancient history before CGMs existed.  My H was home for the 5th one, but was on the other side of the house and couldn't hear me calling for him.  But my dog was with me.  She knew I was in trouble and was really upset.  For what felt like an eternity, she wouldn't leave my side.  But finally in a "Timmy's in the well" Lassie moment, she ran to my H and made him follow her to the bedroom.

On the one side, it's a bad gamble for something that happens so rarely.  But on the other hand, when a "loss" could mean death or severe permanent problems like brain damage, I should just suck it up (sigh).

But I'd rather see about getting emergency glucose systems first.  I'm going to call my insurance company tomorrow and find out what my costs would be for Baqsimi (nasal spray for lows) or Gvoke (emergency glucose shot) because I am entitled to whatever discount they've arranged.  And/or talk to those pharm companies about discount coupons.  Because the retail costs are infuriatingly high.  $611 for the nasal spray (one use) and $343 for the glucose shot (one use).  They'd probably still be making a huge profit if they only charged $50 for them.

I wonder if I can just buy a vial of glucagon.  The A1 internet summary says I can with a prescription, but I can't find any other info which makes me think it's talking about glucose shots. 

CharmedPam

How horrible @short+sassy. So glad you’re ok now. And that lassie moment 💔.  Is there a warning sign that occurs right before? No matter how big or small.
The cost  is the same reason I don’t have a cgm. Last time I checked it wasn't covered. The freestyle libre, unless they changed in the last 8 years, always popped out of my arm. The design looks the same but unfortunately the censor wire needed to be longer to stay in for it to work.   

ILoveBeachMusic

Glad you are ok but that is super scary @short+sassy. I love the "lassie moment" though. Dogs are so sensitive. 

@ei34 I wondered the same thing about your Italian. You might recall I have been studying Italian for quite awhile. I'm not nearly fluent but can carry on a rough conversation and read ok. Like short+sassy said, I could pronounce a book but probably wouldn't understand all of it.

ei34

That's so scary @short+sassy, I'm glad you're okay!

The Spanish and Italian are two different things.

There aren't native Italian speakers at my school, so for test reads in Italian, it's only for English-speaking students who are taking Italian as their foreign language and also have the accommodation of having tests read.  I don't have an official seal of biliteracy in Italian, you're probably properfuly more fluent in it than I am @ILoveBeachMusic!  Two of my grandparents didn't speak much English, so my Italian is very conversational and casual.  I read books to my kids in Italian when they were younger, and we chit chat in it in the kitchen, when I realized that if I can read them books I can also read Italian tests.  The Italian teacher gives you the test, you read it to them, and if they feel your pronunciation is strong enough, they let the AP know you can be an Italian reader.

The Spanish is different bc there are native Spanish speakers who arrived recently and are more comfortable taking tests in Spanish (or whatever their native language is, sometimes it's Mandarin, Farsi, etc).  My first MSEd was in Bilingual School Counseling (I went the bilingual route bc I took Spanish in high school, then in college, and was comfortable enough in it to sit for and pass the bilingual piece in grad school).  So I'm not reading Spanish tests to kids who use English but get tests read, I'm instead reading, say, a Chemistry test in Spanish.  The chair of the ENL department oversees test reads like that, since she has to verify seals of biliteracy for non-English speaking students.  Whereas my direct boss, the chair of Special Ed, oversees test read accommodations for students who need help there.

Freakin props to all these kids coming from overseas, not only dealing with HS but HS in a completely new country, missing home, learning a new language.  I will do anything to make life feel easier for them (especially since cheeto in chief seems to forget that immigrants make America incredible).  Props to the American-born kids killing it in HS while dealing with disabilities...I'm much more of a visual person than an auditory one, I could not imagine only listening to tests and not being able to read them.  

levioosa

That's so hard @short+sassy I was gonna ask if your doctor could give you Glucagon. I would always call 911 for severe low BGL but at least it is something that can be given in an emergency if you have it at home before they get there. 

I used to have a patient that drove us all nuts (in an exasperated but very concerned way). They would regularly have BGL 30 or below (and still be conscious! Not oriented, but conscious, which I think was also part of the issue in trying to get them to understand how dangerous and scary that was). We begged them to let us order them a continuous glucose monitor and insulin pump, fire department begged them, they refused. I always wonder what happened to them because one day, we just knew they'd go to sleep and instead of their usual M.O. of wandering around the house confused, combative, and screaming, they'd just go into a diabetic coma. I have a feeling that ultimately, cost is what made them keep refusing and it's so infuriating that cost is even a factor in life and death medical decisions. 

banana468

I'm so sorry @short+sassy for what you're going through!  It's frightening when these things come on with no explanation.