Am I Normal?

em01092

Don't get me wrong, I am totally excited to get married, have the wedding we have planned, go on the HM, all that, but I guess it just hasn't "hit" me yet that it's next month? I see all of yall talking about it and I guess I just don't get that way about big things, for myself anyway. Like I have enjoyed sharing planning details and hearing about all of yours, but it's all just so weird to me. I don't reall know how to explain what I'm feeling right now. I guess I'm just kind of numb to it all?

I felt this same way about graduation from college: I anticipated it gladly, thought I would get more and more anxious as it approached (I didn't), and then it came, and it didn't seem real almost. I felt like I was on a movie set. 

When I moved out, my roommates all cried and I didn't, but I think that's because I'm just not an emotional person in front of people. I just felt bad! It didn't want them to think I was cold. I kind of fake cried haha. I definitely cried when I got home and read the letters they had written me about our friendship. The reason I mention this is I'm probably not going to cry before/during/after the wedding, and I am worried people will think I'm like insensitive or something for not getting worked up. 

So, am I like from another planet or something? haha  

rardito

I am the same way.  I am not really anxious about the actual wedding, just about getting the headcount, relaying information to vendors, etc.  Once all of that is done, I probably won't be anxious again until the day of, and only because I'm a huge control-freak and will be worrying that things aren't getting done before the ceremony.  I just have a feeling that my flower lady is going to forget to show up or something.  She seems to be kind of sketchy lately.

justad0reme

Same here!!! While I'm excited about the wedding it hasn't really hit me yet.  I'm not freaking out about things that need to get done yet, I'm being very laid back which is very unusual on my part.  I think I'm trying to enjoy the moment as much as I can because I know that everything will be taken care of eventually.  I also think that the fact that Fi and I already live together is helping me stay calm since I know that there won't be a big change in my life expect maybe for my name change. 

rardito

Yeah that too, FI and I have lived together for...5 years?  So nothing is really changing in my life (except for marital status).  I'm not even changing my name.

chickenbut143

I'm more nervous about EVERYTHING - more than anything.  I like being around friends and family but I'm really nervous about meeting FI's family (that I haven't met yet).  I'm nervous about things coming together for our wedding and making such a life change - even though we live together, i'm nervous about starting a family (FI and I are thinking about TTC in the next 6 mo-yr).  

  I agree that it's hard to imagine our wedding day "next month".  It seems like I've been planning much longer than I have (10 months) and to see it all come together just doesn't seem possible yet.

  I'm sure in 2 months or so we'll all be on here talking about how much we miss planning - but right now, i'm excited to get the wedding over with.  I'm just excited to be married to the man I love.