I know this will be long...Well, everything has been going so smoothly the past few weeks, I should have been expecting something bad would be coming. I finally started my new job as a Speech Therapist, only 11 days left and pretty much everything is done, my mom got all of the candy in for the candy buffet she is puting together for me, my b-pics turned out frickin awesome which in turn gave me a confidence boost, and did I mention the wedding is only 11 days away!So, you can understand why I was blindsided yesterday by my little cousin's facebook update that said "RIP Don Lee H***" both my grandfather and uncle's name. So I say to FI in disbelief "I think Pop died...or maybe Uncle Don..." He gives me a confused look and then I dial my mom's # and ask "what's going on?". She replies calmly "what do you mean?" and then starts sniffling and asks if my dad and sis were there yet...confusion and realization.... Then she starts sobbing and tells me she's on a plane to FL because Pop died. The next words out of her mouth were "Don't worry everything will be fine for the wedding." and the doorbell rings.My sister and dad proceed to assure me that everything will be fine by next week. SERIOUSLY? my grandfather just died and my family is concerned that I'm going to freak out about wedding plans? I mean I'm thankful that they are here to help, but I'm more worried about my little mommy and how she is dealing with this. I'm a little worried about myself too because I haven't even cried at all. I was never close to my mom's dad (he was a grumpy old man who was almost always condescending and mean to me), but he was still my grandfather and I should be feeling some sort of emotion here...I just really don't want wedding day to roll around and have a nervous breakdown and cry all day. I also want to do something in his memory, but not sure what. I don't want my mom to be sad and really don't know what I'm supposed to do right now... totally lost and all the little planning things seem so unimportant...I just wrote all this here because I know you girls understand the emotions leading up to the big day and can sympathize w/ how upside down I feel now. At least I get to pick my dress up from rose today... if that counts as a silver lining...
TTC since 7/10
First RE appt 10/11
Me- 29; DX- Stage II Endo & hydrosalpinx
DH- 34 w/ "borderline morph"
12/2011, 1/2012, & 3/2012- tamoxifen+TI= BFNs
Lap- 4/11/12- removed ovarian cyst, adhesions, and repaired twisted tube
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