Military Brides

Time to come clean.

I haven't been posting much lately but there's a reason for it I promise.  Pretty much everyone knows that my H came back last month.  I had really hoped that when he came back we could sort through all of our issues, but it became really obvious really quickly that my H had no intention of changing the way he treated me, or his attitude towards our marriage. There was a lot that I didn't share on the board about just how terribly he treated me (Calindi can attest to that..) but I just didn't want to be a constant Debbie Downer.  I think that I also kind of felt like if I didn't talk about it the emotional abuse wasn't real.. It was real, and it wasn't going to get any better.  I filed for divorce on Feb 13th. Since we were already separated for over a year, we can count that time as a legal separation (otherwise we'd have to wait another year to even file for divorce) and he just signed divorce papers on March 5th.  So 30 days from then I'll be officially single again.  I just wanted things to be more final before I said anything on here... plus y'all are all planning weddings and enjoying married life and I didn't want to bring everyone down... Sorry to add the the statistics Ladies.  I Love you all.
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Re: Time to come clean.

  • Sam, I love you, and I'm so proud of you for doing what is best for you.  I know exactly how tough this was for you, because I've been here holding your hand (virtually) every step of the way.  You are a strong person who has so much to offer, and you deserve to be appreciated and treated as a partner in a relationship.  You are so much better off!!!!

    And yes, for all of you, Sam's STBXH is a Class A jerkface of the 1st degree.

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  • Oh Sami hugs to you!   Sometimes things do not work out the way we think they will.  I have gotten to know you through the board and of course "the book" and I know you are a strong and wonderful woman.  You are doing what is right for you and that is great.  I think you made a very strong decision. I don't know all of the details but I know you (not in real life but hope to soon) did what was best for you.  You deserve to be happy and enjoy life.  Hugs to you and love you back!

  • HUGS to you. I know first hand how horribly difficult divorce can be, even when it is so obviously the right answer. Crown is right - you deserve to be happy and never let anyone tell you otherwise.
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    I am really sorry to hear this Sami! Hugs! But kudos to you for sticking up for yourself and not letting him treat you like that anymore. I don't necessarily "know" you but you have always seemed like a strong woman and this is just proof of that strength! You will get through this and be an even stronger person because of it.
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    LOVE YOU CHICA! Pls don't leave us :)
    *big hug* if you ever need sweets just let me know!

    ETA: everytime I see your posts I picture you as Paula Dean in my head (she is the only other person I know that says y'all as much). I LOVE IT! and it only ever sinks in that you're not her when I see you on FB.
  • Hugs to you Sami! I'm sorry you had to go through all of this, and I agree with the ladies above that you are a fabulous woman and deserve to have somebody that treats you as wonderfully as you deserve to be treated. I can't speak for everybody, and I would completely understand if you didn't want to hang around on a wedding website after going through all of this, but IMO, you have nothing to apologize for and I would love it if you would stick around to talk on here. Otherwise I'll have to bug you on the , because you're just that awesome. :) love you girl!!
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  • Sami, I told you this before, but I am seriously so happy that you did this. I've been super missing you on the boards, I really hope you post more now that its all out. You are NOT a statistic. You are a strong woman who did what was right for herself. You did not let yourself become a victim. I am soooo proud of you. You did not deserve anything he did or said to you. I'm sure I don't have to tell you this, but so many woman stay with someone who does what your XH was doing to you and stay. Who wants to live a life like that! Clearly not you, because you are so much better than that, and you KNOW it!
    Right now, you are my HERO :) Love you dearly!

  • Emotional abuse is terrible.  I recommend a therapist because this will permeate your post-married life in ways you'd never even realize. The flashbacks are the worst, but they are NORMAL, and repeat after me:  NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT.

    I went through the same thing with my ex husband, and I know how hard it can be to admit to being an abused wife.  You want to think that you're stronger than that, and besides, how can you he be abusing you if he's not hitting you?  There's all sorts of rationalization that goes on before you're finally strong enough to admit that yeah, this is happening to you, and it's not changing, and it's time to leave.

    But you are an amazing, strong woman, and you will move on, and life will be great again, and probably sooner than you think.  (((BIG HUGS))).  Hang in there, chica.
  • In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_military-brides_time-to-come-clean?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special Topic Wedding BoardsForum:13Discussion:273e462b-00ff-48e4-b321-14a6d34703adPost:9e10ec01-1360-46c5-b72c-4df483ab5503">Re: Time to come clean.</a>:
    [QUOTE]Sami, I told you this before, but I am seriously so happy that you did this. I've been super missing you on the boards, I really hope you post more now that its all out. You are NOT a statistic. You are a strong woman who did what was right for herself. You did not let yourself become a victim. I am soooo proud of you. You did not deserve anything he did or said to you. I'm sure I don't have to tell you this, but so many woman stay with someone who does what your XH was doing to you and stay. Who wants to live a life like that! Clearly not you, because you are so much better than that, and you KNOW it! Right now, you are my HERO :) Love you dearly!
    Posted by CAB1217[/QUOTE]

    Basically what CAB said and what Kelli recommended. I was emotionally/physically abused before I meet H and it isn't something I talk about a lot, but I really do recommend talking to a therapist because the flashbacks SUCK and realizing that what they said isn't true, takes a lot of digging.

    But I love you and I think your just kick butt. Your a strong, amazing women and just all around southern awesome. You deserve to be happy, and loved, and appreciated - no matter what. Your some serious kick butt awesome and I hope things get better/easier for you with time.

    And to touch on the Paula Deen - I always envision you as a skinny, younger, hotter version of Paula Deen. :) LIke a rachel ray paula deen combo.
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  • Sam, there's not much else for me to say as I have told you again and again how I feel and you know that I support you every step of the way in the new path you'll be taking. I am sooo proud of you for standing up and believing in yourself. You know that I'm always here! Love you SJB! Laughing
  • Oh Sami, your last sentance hurts my heart.  You have nothing to apologize for.  You did what was best for you.  Making that decision is so incredibly difficult.  I too have been there- not for the same reasons but it was still rough.  Don't let anyone (including yourself) treat you like you "failed."  Congrats on taking care of yourself and I pray that you now find true happiness.

    PS- I second Kelli.  Therapy is a great thing!
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  • I'm sorry, hun.  I know how hard those steps are to take, even when in a bad situation.  I've been in your shoes if you need someone to talk to.  {{hugs}}
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  • Girl, you know I love you. I'm proud of you.
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  • So what do you do when you get divorced???

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    YOU GO TO DISNEY WORLD!!!!!  See you there in 2 days, lady!





    All these guys are waiting to give you a big ol' hug (and one for Hike for her baby, too!):




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  • I didn't get to go to Disney World when I got divorced!  Man, I got robbed.  :(
  • Oh Sami, please don't ever feel like you failed something or that you are a statistic. You are a wonderful, bright, strong person who deserves love. And you deserve to be happy and healthy emotionally, mentally, and physically. I hope you stay around if you feel like you can, because you're such an integral part of what makes this board so fantastic. I also hope that this process goes as smoothly as possible for you so that you can start the next fabulous chapter of your life. Because it will be fabulous. 

    I agree with AMH, too: You're like a hot Rachel Ray/Paula Deen hybrid, with a bit of Nigella Lawson in there. 
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    edited March 2012
    In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_military-brides_time-to-come-clean?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special%20Topic%20Wedding%20BoardsForum:13Discussion:273e462b-00ff-48e4-b321-14a6d34703adPost:c0fd1ea2-e67d-42b2-ad71-d3f37932c607">Re: Time to come clean.</a>:
    [QUOTE]I didn't get to go to Disney World when I got divorced!  Man, I got robbed.  :(
    Posted by kellieinkc[/QUOTE]

    You weren't an MBer at the time, who had buddies within driving distance of Disney World.  I have found the MB girls tend to stick together pretty well!  We totally would have taken you!

    Plus Sam and I have been penpals for almost 1.5 years now - I made a gingerbread ornament for her as a wedding gift (which we are going to crumble into bits, and I'm going to make her a 'sexy single diva' gingerbread ornament this year instead).  I feel like I've been there since the beginning, and I sure as heck want to help her cheer up and celebrate recapturing her independence and self-worth!

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  • In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_military-brides_time-to-come-clean?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special Topic Wedding BoardsForum:13Discussion:273e462b-00ff-48e4-b321-14a6d34703adPost:c0fd1ea2-e67d-42b2-ad71-d3f37932c607">Re: Time to come clean.</a>:
    [QUOTE]I didn't get to go to Disney World when I got divorced!  Man, I got robbed.  :(
    Posted by kellieinkc[/QUOTE]

    LOL I know right?!
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  • You guys should probably go to Disneyland in CA instead. I'll see you there. (PLEASE?!?)
  • I'm so excited for Disney!!!!!

    Thank you all for your love and support though, it truly means soo much to me!
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  • You live within driving distance of Disney World?  Marry me.

  • In Response to <a href="http://forums.theknot.com/Sites/theknot/Pages/Main.aspx/special-topic-wedding-boards_military-brides_time-to-come-clean?plckFindPostKey=Cat:Special%20Topic%20Wedding%20BoardsForum:13Discussion:273e462b-00ff-48e4-b321-14a6d34703adPost:7d861da7-5c7a-4984-9b3e-2ca02b488440">Re: Time to come clean.</a>:
    [QUOTE]You live within driving distance of Disney World?  Marry me.
    Posted by kellieinkc[/QUOTE]

    Yep, 3.5 hours.  Hike is about the same, opposite direction, and Sam is another 3.5 hours north of that, so poor Sam has the most driving to do on Friday.  But it'll be worth it!!!!

    And the military discount is awesome - $139 for a 4 day park hopper pass.  Hike and Sam both have dependent ID's, so either of them can buy them... my Florida pass wouldn't be as good of a deal, so I'm going to have one of them buy me a ticket and I'll pay them back.  It is good for service member or spouse and up to 4 guests.

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  • Hey lady- again, I'm really proud of you for being strong and making the decision to get away from the abusive relationship! And you are NOT a statistic. Love you!
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  • Actually, I should add that I'm looking forward to the drive.  I'm going to go stock up on Audiobooks at the library to listen to for the 9.5 hour drive!! I'm just so excited!!
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  • I wanna go to Disney, no fair!

    And Sami - Don't ever feel like you failed, your happiness is the most important thing, nothing else matters.
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  • I love you.that is all I have to add!
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  • Sami I'm so sorry for what you're going through. You deserve better and you are an amazing person! Hugs!
  • Sami I am so sorry that you've had to go through that abuse and overall horrible situation.  I am very proud of you for doing what you know is right and getting out of that situation.  You deserve much, much better and to be truly loved and cared for.  Fuuck that shitbag.  


    Also, I feel like such a POS for not even realizing douchebag was already home, and for the horrible timing of my post in the Lovefest.  Sorry love.
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  • I just wanted to say I love you and I'm glad that you're doing what is right for you!  That is all.

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