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calindi

One year, one month, one week, and one day.... I AM GOING NUTS!!!!

I'm already done with most of my planning and have no desire to do the rest right now, so I'm taking a much deserved break.  My Mom's on my back to get the rest of the details ironed out, but I keep pointing out to her that there are couples who haven't even gotten engaged yet who will be married before me, so she can chill a bit for now.

But I really really really just want to be married to FI already!  I keep hearing this year will go quickly, but I hate Florida, I hate my new job, and I just want to get out of here  so I have a feeling it's going to go soooo slowly.  This past month just dragged by.  Hopefully once FI is home, life will be happier and I won't hate it here so much (fat chance... I hate it a lot).

Any tips on how to survive?  Reassurances that it truly will pass quickly?  Did you feel this way a year out?

shan87

You hate your job? The one that flew you to London?


I just enrolled my Dog into a new training class at our next station, which doesn't help you since you are not a pet person LoL.

Since your FI will be back, I think you will be able to find things to do together that make time fly by. Just take it day by day.

calindi

Thanks!  Yeah, I hate my new job that flew me to London.  I knew I was qualified for it and that I'd likely be hired, but I know that I'll hate every minute of the job.  I have to call people and misrepresent myself (aka lie) to get information which we then pass on to their competitors.  I just hate making phone calls all the time, and my boss kept telling me that since it was salaried, they expected more than 40 hours per week.  Uh, you're telling me the hours are 8-5 which means it's actually a 45 hours per week, and you expect me to be there regularly more than that?  Pay me more!  And they expect me to take calls during personal time, evenings/weekends, etc.  I'm just sick of that stuff, and I want this year over so I can finally do what I really want to do - which is write!  And sure, I can start now, a few hours here or there, but to really immerse myself in it, it's just not possible as I need things like rent money and health insurance.

I think I'm just super grumpy because I hate my job, I'm bleeding money (which I hate even more), FI isn't home yet and I'm getting antsy since it's only a few more days (aren't the last days the worst? Ugh!), and I hate this damned city and this damned weather and these damned people.

KendallR10

Lots of mixed drinks.

I feel like even the last few months have flown by. I'm sure the next year will. 

I'm a year maybe more out and I feel like the time is flying

melbelle24

First of all, that job doesn't really sound like something I would want to do either, but at least it's a job! I'm betting that life will get better once your FI gets back, those last few days are always the hardest on me because I just get so ready to see him and I HATE waiting. As far as tips to get you through this next year, all I can suggest is to just find something that you enjoy doing so you'll have something to look forward to every day. Whether that's writing, exercising, or finding a new hobby that you want to try. Something new and fun to do (and to keep you busy) always helps me get through the day-to-day. I'll bet you'll get out of this funk soon, and the rest of the year will fly by!

kara811

I'm sorry you hate your job but FWIW, I felt the exact same way when we were still a year out. But the time really seemed to pick up and before I knew it, it was our wedding day already! 

There were times when it felt like it was dragging and I wasn't doing anything with the planning because everything that could be done are done and could wait until a few months before. What really made the time pick up was around the holidays, I just got so busy that I didn't notice it anymore. Also, I'm sure everything will be better once your FI gets home! 

divinemsbee

I can say that as someone who thought she was only a few days out and is now a month or two out, I want to hit things with other hard things. Also, I've defintely done the whole incredibly soul-sucking wants to take all your personal life job, and the only advice I can give on that is to try really hard to not bring it home with you if and when at all possible. Especially when your FI gets home. It's poison, and it seeps into a lot more of your life than you realize (or at least it did for me).

I've been pretty determined not to do any concrete planning until I'm back South, and I'm ready to do this thing. I will also be packing and re-packing, and cleaning my old things from my Dad's house, so that will be fun and take up time.  And whenever I think about the wedding I think there is absolutely no way I'm going to get this all done. Time's moving slowly by the day but way too fast by the month.

And I totally hear you on the hemorrhaging money thing, it's just easier when you have both people in the same place. Super happy for you he'll be back really soon, that'll be so much better.

calindi

Apparently we may be moving in a few weeks!  There's an apartment that's available nearby for almost half what we're paying in rent.  We'd have to give up quite a bit (washer/dryer, backyard, driveway, second bedroom, second bathroom, tons of cabinet space in the kitchen, walk in straight off the street vs. 3 floor walk up stairs - no elevator, etc.) but it would save us about $6500 over the following year everything considered!  I'm not sure how I feel about it, but it would be nice to save that much money!

Beachy730

Our original wedding date was going to be a year and 2 months from when we got engaged, and I didn't look into anything further than venues.  We went to one bridal show to get some ideas, and picked our venues.  But I planned on waiting a bit for everything else.  Then we had to bump up the date by 5 months, so I was left with 5 months to go to plan everything.  TBH, I don't know how anyone plans for longer than that, because we were so ready for it to be over with!  The wedding seems to just become all consuming of your life for a while, because that's all people seem to ask you about or want to talk about, and it always seems like there is something that needs to be done.  

Hopefully things start to look up for you so you can cheer up a bit.  I'm sure having FI home again will definitely help make things better.  Once you start focusnig on moving or where your FI will be next, it will definitely help make the time go by much quicker.  Between our wedding and our PCS within 5 weeks of eachother, time seemed to fly by.