Who's here tonight?

ravenray

I have always meant to read the Outlander series but I have never gotten around to it.  That is a good goal!  My goal last year was to read 100 but I failed lol.  Maybe I will have to read it!

I just watched the Help.  I really liked it   I am sure the book is much better though, always is.

bethsmiles

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[QUOTE]I just watched the Help.  I really liked it :)  I am sure the book is much better though, always is.
Posted by ravenray[/QUOTE]

I really liked the book. You should read it :)

Elle1036

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[QUOTE]I loooooooove the Band Perry! And Brad Paisley, but mostly the Band Perry lol and I finished a bottle of Merlot tonight. By myself. I'm a lush, it's ok to tell me that.
Posted by Ollie08[/QUOTE]



Another TBP fan here. I like every song they've ever done, I think. I kinda want to use "All Your Life" for my first dance with FI at the wedding.

I like Brad Paisley, too.

peekaboo2011

I just got home from work.  It's pity party of one for me tonight.  I've been sobbing since I left the restaurant.  I really just want to go home right now.

bethsmiles

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[QUOTE]I just got home from work.  It's pity party of one for me tonight.  I've been sobbing since I left the restaurant.  I really just want to go home right now.
Posted by peekaboo2011[/QUOTE]

*HUGS* Did I miss a post? What's up?

Peaseblossom55

Peek what's wrong?

I just got home did dinner w/ a friend and saw some friends in a show.  It was so good!!! Now Im home relaxing w/ the BF drinkking some lemonaide and sweet tea vodka.

bethsmiles

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[QUOTE]Peek what's wrong? I just got home did dinner w/ a friend and saw some friends in a show.  It was so good!!! Now Im home relaxing w/ the BF <strong>drinkking some lemonaide and sweet tea vodka.</strong>
Posted by danser55[/QUOTE]

That sounds super good right now

Peaseblossom55

Peek what's wrong?

I just got home did dinner w/ a friend and saw some friends in a show.  It was so good!!! Now Im home relaxing w/ the BF drinkking some lemonaide and sweet tea vodka.

Peaseblossom55

It is very good.

peekaboo2011

Last weekend while BF was here, he spent Saturday night at the bar of the restaurant where I work.  Well, BF works for the government.  And the bartender kept making jokes about the drugs he was slipping into BF's drinks.  After the third joke or so, I flat out told him it wasn't funny.  To which he replied "Lighten up DC,"  and continued to make the jokes.  BF wouldn't let me say anything else to him.  I kind of gave him the cold shoulder Sunday, especially when he kept telling me that BF was an asshole for "taking up prime real estate and not drinking" even though we weren't busy at all.

So, I said nothing.

This week has been hell for various reasons, but one of the highlights of yesterday was a two hour long chat I had with one of Oceana's advisors.  Who flat out told me that I wasn't trying to work with the right people, that the people I wanted to work for weren't good enough.  Dude, if they aren't the good people, and I can't get in to their lab, and you want me to apply to BETTER people, whose labs are harder to get in to, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN?!  Answer: I'm going to be rejected.  Thanks.  Thank you for making me believe in myself.

Today, I spent two hours trying to do the work of like 4 people, and when I was told to go ahead and clean up and go back to my work (that was on a deadline), I did.  Because he said he would finish up for me after his errand.  An hour and a half later, he wants me to come back and drop off the water chemistry stuff for each tank, so I tell him I'm on my way down, quick chat with my boss about the work that's supposedly STILL on deadline for TODAY, and then run down to grab the numbers.  He then told me that he wanted me to learn how to change filters, drain and fill tanks, etc etc.  It ended up taking like 2 hours for me to do this.  And my stuff that's on deadline STILL ISN'T DONE.  I got bitched at for not putting a hose in the right place - even though I had no idea where it went, so I put it with the other hoses.

And then I had a shittastical evening of waiting tables.

There's SO much pressure involved with this internship.  Not because of the work I'm doing, but because of who I'm working with and for.  All of these people are amazing in this field.  My office is across the hall from the 90 year old woman who freaking FOUNDED the lab.  Everyone who comes out of these internships seems to make it.  And here I am, doing what I can, knowing that I'm not getting in to grad school, that after this semester, I'm done in this field because I just can't spend the next five years of my life trying to make it work.  Meanwhile, everyone I know from college, who is a year behind me, is getting acceptance letters to law school and grad school.  I've been out a full year and have nothing to show for it.  I can't even afford my bills right now.  I just feel like if I'm going to be mediocre, I should be mediocre where people aren't expecting me to move mountains.

bethsmiles

Oh Peek, I"m sorry you are having such a hard time. I wish I could give you a big hug in person. But I'll give you big virtual hugs *HUGS*!

You are NOT mediocre. You are smart, talented, and beautiful so don't ever give up or think you can't do something. If all of the people where you are working with for your internship are amazing then you must be better than you think otherwise you wouldn't be there.

If you want to change fields then change fields but don't do it because you don't think you're good enough because you are.

We are all here for you

thejucheidea

I had three patients die this week and found out tonight that a boy I took care of when he was a baby died yesterday afternoon from his cancer -- he had just turned seven last month. His service is on Sunday.

I'm in a little bit of a funk.

ravenray

Oh no Peeks!  and hugs.  Just like beth said you are not at all mediocre.  You are smart, intelligent and motivated.  I know how you feel, sometimes I feel like I am never going to be good enough to get anywhere in life.  But I know you, I know you are smart, funny, and motivated.  You will get somewhere you want to be in life.  Just keep putting yourself out there.  I know rejection hurts but if you never try you never know if you would have made it or not.  Anyways I believe in you and in who you are, and it what you can do.  I love you

Peaseblossom55

im sorry peek, you are amazing, please don't let other people bring you down.

ravenray

Oh ahstill!  *hugs*  I am sorry. That is so rough.  Do you want to talk about it?

thejucheidea

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[QUOTE]Oh ahstill!  *hugs*  I am sorry. That is so rough.  Do you want to talk about it?
Posted by ravenray[/QUOTE]
Right now is still all about me coming to terms with the losses. Tomorrow's going to be nice and chill... I may go see a movie and go to the farmers' market... then on Sunday, Tyler has a couple of coworkers coming over and they're going to play with the dogs while I go to the memorial service. It'll all be good; I just have to get over this initial hump.

jemmini6

Aww, peek and stillwell...I just want to give you both big hugs right now. I'm here if either of you need to talk about it.

bethsmiles

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[QUOTE]I had three patients die this week and found out tonight that a boy I took care of when he was a baby died yesterday afternoon from his cancer -- he had just turned seven last month. His service is on Sunday. I'm in a little bit of a funk.
Posted by ahstillwell[/QUOTE]

I'm so sorry *hugs*