So....apologize if I ramble on I just frustrated! My fiance just left (we dont live together yet). We will be together 7 years on Christmas 2 engaged. I just finished college if that even matters (im 21 and he will be 23). So...he just stopped by and I thought we might go to the store because I need resume paper..so anyways he just brought up his dad said starting the new year (his dads girlfriend or me can only come over on Saturday not earlier in the week). He lives with his father but he gives him alot of his money which I feel that his father is ungrateful for, but Ill get into that later on. Lately because I have been in college the last few years I would go over on a Thursday or Friday and go home Sunday. I feel like thats the only time we had to really spend time together anyways...and half the time Im there he is working or went hunting with his dad etc. or whatever, and I would do homework or something. So I just feel like I hate that like its a RULE or something. His dad mentioned to him that I dont talk to him when Im there. This is where we started getting into it and we really dont argue much. I just do not feel that comfortable or close to his father. He used to be closer to his mother, but now his father since his parents got divorced and he lives with his father.
Okay I have anxiety so I think that plas apart, but his dad is hard to talked to. I also heard his dad and his dads gf talk behind my back numerous times before. This makes me not want to talk even more. This is my personality and I go on the computer study etc when Im there..and his dad just complains. His dad is being lazy relies on unemployment in the past and now, and isnt looking for a job.One time a few months ago when his dad was drunk he said stuff about me and my fiance. He called my fiance a low life for no reason,,,and got into my business and said why isnt she working more (I had a good reason with college etc)and that Im not doing anything with my life...but I just turned 21 went to college straight out of highschool made the deans list multiple times and just graduated college. Just aggravating. My fiance told him he should apologize but he said why should I apologize for? He never did. I feel like Im such a nice person...and that he treats not so nice peolpe better than me...just feel like if I was more of a B!!!!! HE MIGHT LIKE ME??! So I do not see after 7 years how it is going to change . My fiance mentioned before, (he tends to care about his father a little too much) that when we move out he wants his father to practically move in with us or next to us. I told him tonight for the first time that I do not think that is going to work...and he wasnt too happy. I do not know I love my fiance so much but I feel like this is so unfair and that I do not deserve or should feel uncomfortable around his family. I do not even want to go over there for Christmas because I do not want to see his dad. I only have been telling my fiance things about his dad or his dads girlfriend maybe 1 out of the 5 times something happens. I feel like I cant say anything to his dad or his dads girlfriend because then I wont be allowed over there and thats really the only time we spend together. My fiance has a big mouth and might bring it up to his dad and I will feel even more akward. Its not like we can go somewhere everytime we see eachother (too expensive and Im broke from college), my house is too noisy, but he does come over sometimes. Going back and forth wont work either (I have a liscence but dont like to drive so fiance has car). IM FRUSTRATED AND HATE THIS SITUATION PLEASE WHAT TO DO? Sorry typing fast sorry if there are errors.