Hi there,
So...after being engaged for three years...we finally set our date: August 25th, 2012. So the venue is set, the reception is set...nothing else really is.
To frame: my fiance and I moved 600 miles away from all of my family for graduate school (hence the long engagement). I currently have a contract, very-easy-to-lose job and he's been looking for a job since December. We live with my parents and need to be married before October as that's when I lose my parent's health insurance. I'm also not allowed to take days off from work (I haven't had one off since 2009) or sick days or personal days at all. Did I mention our budget is $4,000?
This whole wedding is making me miserable!I knew their would be planning but everything feels so stressful. We're going dress shopping today and I'm just dreading it. The dresses for fat girls like myself are never actually nice and I hate trying anything on. Beyond that, it's going to be hella expensive for an ugly fat girl dress. I was hoping for once in my life I'd get to wear something that I didn't hate but fit into but it's not looking promising for our wedding.
My fiance and I also keep getting into a lot of fights (as I also do with my friends) because we won't be having a honeymoon (remember how I'm not allowed days off of work?) and will be working the day after the wedding (since I'll have to take and risk my job for a half of a day before the wedding to finalize things).
I just either always feel like this whole thing is making me miserable! At this point, I don't know why we're even bothering getting married since we can't afford anything and everyone else gets what they want for their wedding and we won't.
Is any of this normal?
Thanks for your help/chit-chat!