I am getting married July 3rd 2011. time has really flew by. We got engaged December 17th, 2009.
Christmas 09 I went to DB with his mom and tried on a few dresses. I really like one. In February I went to Filene's Basement Running of the Brides sale event.
After trying on about 15 dresses. The 4th and 5th dresses I tried on were the ones!Originally we were getting married in Jamaica and I wanted a more formal ceremony gown and a festive reception gown. Now, I'm only going to w ear the ceremony gown.
I have mied feelings about my dress. My mother picked it out, brought it to me and i said "yuk". but when i put it on before seeing myself in a mirror, i felt different. then once i saw myself i said this is the one. I loved it. it's a jim hjelm gown. sweetheart neck with subtle pleated at the neckline. One string of crystals at the waist. ivory, full a-line dress.
because it was at the sale, it was totally beat up. TOTALLY. so i sent it to wedding preservation center. it has been cleaned, pressed and it's in a box. i don't plan on taking it out until it's time to alter it.
and i guess this is why i feel the way i feel. i feel so disconnected from it.
like, i have all these ideas for it, like adding a bustle, shortening the hem in the front so my shoes are visible
but then i watch these dress shows and i wonder if maybe i should have slowed down and waited a while. i kinda get sad that i won't have the normal experience of ordering a gown and having it custom made and fitted to me.
i don't know.
i just want to take it out the box and reaasure myself. i want it to be altered and be complete so i know for sure this is right. however...i still have a target weight to meet so doesn't make sense to alter now.
anyway...just ranting and raving.
it sux feeling insecure about ur dress some days. and some days feeling like it's a dream.
