No, its not actually being married that scares me... it is physically walking down an isle in a white dress... everyone staring... having to recite vows....NOT FAINTING (which I am prone to). If I fainted walking down the isle, I'd feel like I'd feel like a big douche.
I want to elope... but my FI isn't into it. A dream scenario would be eloping in Europe.. then coming back for a party. I just can't imagine spending all the money necessary. If I were going to spend money, shouldn't I spend it on a car or something? The end result is the only thing that is important to me (aka being able to say 'hubby'). I feel like sometimes I want it all (Europe+party), and sometimes I want nothing more than the JOP. Any advice on my disorganized wedding planning?