I need some.
I dislocated my shoulder tonight.
In 2008 I dislocated my right shoulder when I was standing on skiis and lost my balance, fell funny and my shoulder just popped out.
Tonight I dislocated my left shoulder when I was in downward dog, about to go into hover/snake. Again, a very odd way to dislocate.
It has apparently become clear that my osteoarthritis might be further along that I had thought as the hospital brought it up before I did.
So, thoughts and stuff. I have done this before and right now I am in a very deep, dark pit of despair. It took me a year to rehab last time. A YEAR. It was painful and challenging and I hated it. I feel like I don't have it in me again. I am so frustrated because I JUST lost 25lbs these last few months and now I won't be able to exercise. I was JUST getting okay with the idea that I might not be able to run anymore, or lift heavy weights. But now? Now I can't do ANYTHING other than maybe walking for at least 6 weeks. And when we go to St. Lucia this summer, I can't swim because I won't be able to lift my arm that high. I have pretty much been crying since I woke up from the reduction (I was loopy for about 15 minutes afterwards, then when that wore off reality hit me hard). I feel like my weigh loss goals are all done, my training goals are gone for sure...it's all such a mess. And that doesn't even start to address how much this is going to impact my work.
K, end rant. I swear I won't be in this pit for long.