I think my marriage is over. Im trying not to throw up while I write this.
Its been a struggle from day one. H says I'm always mad at him and yet I feel like I'm "always" mad at him because he never gives me attention and gets very mean. We stopped having sex...completely. According to him, its because Im always a bitch. I dont get it - he just completely pulled away.
I got off of an antidepressant about 7 months ago and I'm thinking that part of my sensitivity is due to that. I'm going back on the medication to see if it helps. This isnt all me, yet I've taken all the blame and I'm just begging him not to give up. But...it looks like he has.
My family paid for a very expensive wedding...never thought I would be divorced before they even paid it off. Hell, we havent even ordered our wedding photos yet. Im sick. So sick at my stomach.
All of our future plans for a family, growing old together, me going to nursing school...down the drain. I really dont think I can take this. I dont.